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maen bende2 bodoh kat fcbok and mys... tu laa bahane nye klu x start blaja lg.. ak bjet laa nk bgn awal (pdhl kul 1) nk cr mnde2 yg mrnsang mnda sbg psediaan utk blaja x lme lg en.. tp ape yg ak jmpe?? ape yg ak sangkut?? ape yg ak wat?? glmer age *credit to azrie halili* ~~ sorority life*crdt to yda* ~~fshion war *cdrt utk dri sndiri*. mafia wars?? hahaha ngabehkan bogheh yo.. tade crdt nk reply.. hahahaha

specially dedicated to shahmi...

weyy ak br bce kao nye blog psl "lucky roulette"

ak taw kao x sedih kao cool (bajet) but from wat ive read i think its not wrong if i want to give u my opinion.. perhaps the way im thinkin is different from others in the prospect of university life as u can see im choosing uniten rather than uia.. which is swasta..

i admit swasta IS expansive.. no doubt man, cant imagine how my parents sacrifice like evrything they got, wat they've saved before this.. scatered in front of my eyes just to pay my fees etc. not commenting so much on that but thats wat make me wanna stdy hard.. start to tell to myself that i have to study hard no matter wat.. dun let them down.. summore im taking mechanical engineering.. siriyesly not easy..

but all the expesive thingy is just for the first yer.. try my best to achive the highest point that i could so that i secure my place for scholar.. it goes the same for u dude, like unikl definately anak mara en.. perhaps first sem you hav to pay (ta bule lari lahh) but how about the 6-7 sems after that?? this means you REALLY have to work hard in ur first sem so that mara will give you loan. mara summore easier.. cgpa above 3.5 automatik jd scholar.. if didnt make u still dun hav to pay 100 percent.. bule kaotim (not like the one u did for jpj) =p amek borang pngurangn byran.. u see everything can be settled if u study hard enough.. by this, u will definately x buang mse lepak2 (like other people~~~ no heart feeling) becos you hav such a BIG responsibilities towards yourself, family, and frens(like me) hahahha..

so try to think in my way (if you go to private lahh) wouldnt you be better person if you know ur responsibilities and took care of them well? perhaps if u go for ipta.. byr sket MEMANG! tp manetaw kao slek ke byk maen.. again no heart feeling but this is the fact.. open sket k.. ce tgk org cne n india yg kne byr mhl2 then tgk malay yg mdpt byk bntuan dr krajaan (in university) i dun want to explain in detail but REMEMBER wat i said "observed" them ta kesa laa mane2 kao pegi pown.. then kao pk la sdiri wat im trying to say.. but not saying all malay lahh as im part of them and proud to be one.. but think lahh. cant say lot more sensitive case here.. hahaha

watever it is.. ill pray for ur success.. susa senang sme k.. hopefully u get wat u want... watever it is its the best for u.. like i didnt get mara, mmg sdh tp i believe if i get lahh that one perhaps im not thinking this kindda way know.. maybe ak cam sonok gler.. lupe dunia.. lupe kwn.. lpe nk study bjet da pndai.. spent the money they give unwisely.. tataw lahh kn.. tp now i can see what so called "hikmah" for not getting it.. and looking forward to see more "hikmahs" in future.. hopefully you will find ur hikmah soon..

sume mahu pergi...

i know and i just want to say gud luck...

first and foremost nbil, wlaopun kao sbnrnye da lme da brambus tp klu x ltk nme kao cam sedih plak.. hahhahaa i know its hard, to face evrything alone without ur best buddies (yg murtad utp tuh) hahaha, without ur roomate, without me(ececehh), but its a part of growing up and try as much as we can to be indipendent.. i will always miss you and all the tyme weve ever spent every moment we had together.. be stong hun even ramai yg want to get back wif u, n mmg da ramai wif u currently (jgn kantooi sudey)... kurang kan tdo (pdhl ak pown tdo lg byk dr kao kuwt), appriciate wat u already hv right now all the peluangs to success.. to intan, hahaha kao bsmgt tol ngan uitm.. gud luck hun, hopefully u achieve ur dream to be a doctor.. bukak klink sdiri "klinik Intan skeluarga" hahaha treatment utk otk ak free k =p

to syah, alyaa, afiq and sue.... luv ya always.. its not eassy i know.. but we all hv to work hard and struggle to achieve wat weve dreamt for.. syah, gud luck wif ur college hopefully u will msk miat one fine day and work in airport like you always wished for.. alyaa, afiq, gud luck in kedah.. mkn laksa like my mom said.. to sue.. n9 nice place nnt msm buah ak lwt kao ek bwk buah rambutn sguni... alahh sonaling tu takat borang umah den yo ha.. miss all the memories we had.. hihi..

to rabiatul adawiyah.. my beloved kesen, who is goin to kptm today.. tape x kesa kao dok umah lgpown.. huhuw gud luck wif ur multimedia, ur such a sweet kesen especially when you make ckodok in the mddle on the night... hahaha trust me it wont be easy but try ur best k.. xoxoxo

to alya. now in penang take care of urself hun, no more cat fighting k.. hahaha i can c ur enthusiasm towards getting 4 flat.. gud luck hun.. lily, kuantan iis such a nice place.. ak dpt taw dr shaza yg kao nye dkt ngan tmpt nk shopping en... ak tataw laa ape k jd sure kao kasi kaye nye tmpt tuh doe.. rose, ila, izat uitm shah alam soo near only bule kte lpk lg kan.. kan.. smoge korg blaja leklok.. syaza awek um, hahaha dkt juga mehh still bule jmpe.. kate nk sneak out en.. nat kat uia amek nursing.. gud luck hun, ur deserve it lahh kao en like very caring, loving, know how to massage people nicely.. huahuahua..

next farhana aini... i still dunno ur dcision yet hahaha but gud luck wif everything.. thanx for being such a nice buddy to me.. will not forget you hun.. to qella ali kutty.. hahahaha tade kne mngene.. tape nk tulis gak.. luv you...

to me.. uniten is waiting, my life status there will be like nabil lahh wif nobody.. starting a VERY new life.. new frens new adventure... hopefully we wil meet each other sooner or later.. knowing each of us becoming great people with great money hahaha..

balek2 bnde nih...

ak pown ta bule nk ckp ape lg weyhh... blek2 psl ni gakk..
first of all my dad called me this noon and said " results of mara still the same.. but ive apealed already" so i was like.."its ok, dun worry it doesnt feel as hurt as the first tyme i heard bout it" so thats it.... dunno wat to think anymore just berserah je..

then i asked him again after he came home.. then he said even azlans ic oso kne like mine one.. i was like " what?? how come??" then becoz ta bule thn pye psl i asked again azlan nye ic num.. and try ade je nme dier kuar.. there must be sum thing wrong laa mse he check my name kat mara.. perhaps org tu check kat spc not piln.. ade kmungkinan rite..

so to think deeper.. it means my status for mara still undefined.. like shit ahh rite
mampus laa ak da x kesa da weyh... nk ckp ape pown da tataw... pthhati already.. kechiwa je dgr nme mara... hehh ngative gler ak ni.. sory lahh tade mksd pape siyess..

ak yg msh tataw ape result ak ni akn concentrate kat uniten... what else can i do rite.. klu ak bjye interview tu smpai laa surat... klu x smpai2 i understand wat it means.. uniten is such a gud place.. i know i wont regret going there... stop asking me y uniten not uia... its my life, my choice laa... dont think much about money when ur talking bout study beb.. wth.. klu syg sgt duit mk bpk.. tanak bzirkn duit diorg.. g kje.. jgn stadi. g sewa umah sdiri.. kete sdiri.. sume sdiri.. jual laptop korg hp korg (yg sbnrnye dr duit diorg kan??) so F* laa ak nk study kt ner en.. dont byk byi laa.. mhl ke mura ke.. dekat ke jaoh ke.. klu korg nk ngat ak uia tu amek laa ak da tgglkn tmpt ak utk kao...

pe ni ak mara2 x psl2 hehh.. sorylaa emosi x stabil.. otak begegar sket..

false hope

dunno wat to say already...
its still a no

waiting moment

its killing me man... you know how it felt when you just cant get your head out of it?? isk3.... need to calm down but can anyone tell me how to do it? i even cant slept for 2 days already.. 430 in the morning my mind still on the screen of my comp.. not trying to say i hav photographic memory (which i obviously not)... urghh then imaginelaa i wake up at wat tyme en.. LOL... then i will still sit on my comp trying to kill my tyme.. but so far it seems a pretty ong dayfor me.. oh God fly pliz laa, another one whole day to go (but today pown x finish lg hehh) stay there k... dont jerut2 ur leher ke.. hahahhaah ghilak tol....

ishh geram tol

taw x kucing kat luar umh ak nak branak.. fine laa ak bole thn lg laa kao nk memekak en.. tp x pyh laa nk kuis2 pntu umah ak plak.. nk branak, wat kat luar laa syp2.. ni tekuis2 cam nk pecah msk umak ak je.. ishh.. kang ak picit prot tu br taw.. hahahhahaha evil gler kuwt.. ahh lntk laa.. org da bg kotak ngan kain kao nk msk gak umah ak pastu kao nk branak kat mne?? bilik ak?? hahhahaha kan da kantoi bilik ak like the best place for her to deliver bcoz bsepah gler.. bangang laa hahahaha. tp bok je ngendeng kat mk ak tyme dier nk angkat bj.. skali tpijak menjerit kaw.. hahhaa pastu mk ak ckp.." sebaek x tpijak prot, x psl2 tberanak tros" kui3 boddo laa... da laa hopefuly kuar laa ank kao esok.. tgk sket kaler ape... klu bole nk laa cam garfield (cehh pdhl kutuk kucing tu pstu demand)

new hope coming up..

MAAF, ANDA TIDAK BERJAYA

thats all... thats all they wrote... kindda wierd when i discussed it wif my mother.. she said "yeah laa.. so pelik it suposed to have your name and your ic number" thats why i felt something wrong..

then i check for malin kundang's results.. HAHHAHA im sooo happy he got it.. yeah another gombuck guy r goin overc... and of course laa the result shows his name and his details en.. then i check out my brother result the one that he didnt get.. my mum print it ysterday... eventhough he did get it but still theres his name stated and his ic and this" anda tidak bejaya" thing..

then my mum said " ysterday when i check on fadli's result at first i type the ic wrongly.. i put dash.. then it came out like he one you see on your result.. then i retype and didnt put the dash and then the real result came out with his name and ic number"

that really cunfusing.. then i started recheck my fren who didnt get it.. he said " yeah got my name and ic one" then to satisfy myself i asked for his ic num.. then again what i saw is his name and his ic number and "anda tidak berjaya" thing..

this is confusing which one is actually a true one... my mum said if you get the one you get it means that the ic num is not in the data base perhaps.. maybe they key in my ic number wrongly so when i check its not there.. do you get it?? i dunno if you dont understand what im saying.. uts preety complicated.. but it means im NOT SURE of my result.. of course laa i will double check wif mara om monday.. but while waiting i will try my best to hack my own ic.. its sounds ike im loosing my mind.. but it not need me to pay anything rite.. ouh mara is killing me.. hopefully they tersalah key in my ic and there still hope for me to get it... now im scared man.. really scared.. and if i get it.. i honestly will pledge to study as hard as i could to fulfill my dream... the oportunity.. becoz i already know how it feels to loose it... oh God help me...

didnt get it

hahaha sound bullshit pas br je sdh becoz of my brother skang ni ak lak yg x dpt...
dunno wat else to say.. sedih perhaps yeahh... hmm people said "alaa x pe laa kao kn ade byk offer choose je laa yg len tu" but they dont understand that yg byk2 tu bkn laa my first choice.. honestly my first choice WAS finance.. and the only place i applied is under mara.. dont askk why yg len i x apply mara.. sbnrnye becos dlu i tade ambition rite.. i aways wanted to be a marine biologist... tp malang x berbau ats sbb2 tertentu i decided not to continue with it.. so its all kindda terletak pd my parents decision ( yg sbnrnye my dcision)..

they choose what they think the best and it was "mechanical engineering".... so cam byk gler ahh eng pyer offer like UIA, NOTTIGHAM, UNITEN, even sains fzikal for kolej mara kulim (which i tanak pegi sbb kat kedah!! hahahhaha i said to my mum " maa, kedah kuwt nk makan ape kat stu??" then she balas" mkn laa laksa sedap!! bule kuruskn badan" thats soo doesnt make sense ryte if i go there) hahahah bodo je..

so yeah i KOMPEM tanak amek line medic.. but tataw laa about eng.. so ble da taw dpt interview for mara pe lagi the whole family work it out cr information.. then br laa realize that finance is wat im good in.. dier need maths and we need to meet people alaa yg cam dlm tb tuh.. jd consultant for a company.. pastu da bjet ahh nk jd ceo en.. hikhik.. siap pegi ijok mntk tips dr ainur.. hahaha bpk dier smgt cam dier doe.. genetik... GO AINUR!!! ONCI 2 PYER MENTERI BESAR!!.. soo silly laa dlu2... then pegi tuuh siap pkai bju kutung yg ak jhit sdiri kuwt.. hahahah bwk tuah laa konon.. hampeh... yg pegi sme2 interview tu sume skola superb2 semasyur, tkc, ssp, and me.. what derr... skali malang x berbau... x dpt..

tanhx to farhana aini.. for your information.. klu x ak tataw da kuar smlm.. tyme tu sdih weyy x tpu hahahhaha.. tp thank God ahh on the same tyme ak ngah ym ngan nbel... x penh2 dlm sumur hidup (ceyy) ym ngan nbel.. tu laa ym2 skali dpt brita buruk... hahahaha thanx to nbel for giving me ur strength.. dier ckp " dlu ak x penah imagine amek ict.. but no turning back" so ak pown stick laa to eng line no turning back..

haih.. klu ak kte x nges tpu laa... tp ak x laa mraung en.. cme bergenang ahh pastu meleleh skit gagagagaggaga bodoh laa.. tape ahh tde rzeki nk wat cne... hopefully ak bule jugak jd kaye ble jd engineer t... i want money!!.. hahahhahaha

ape yg mbuatkn ak tekilan is.. ade some of my frens dpt plus gud country oso.. dont want to state laa.. but still thinking of rejecting the offer becos that is not their first hoice... sickening en.. ya laa.. not everybody get wat you got.. ade yg dsperately need it.. you da dpt be thankfull laa.. ni tanak.. wats the point you go for the interview.. unless you ade byk offer utk overc.. bank ngra/ petronas/ sime darby bla3... then you bole laa nk choose either one.. tp ble da sketul tu je you dpt.. then nk kte " tataw ahh weyy.. maybe ak tolak kuwt.. ak nk jd ni.. tp yg ni offer dier ni.. x sme.." wtf ahh... hahaha kan da marah da ni.. no heart feeling ahh.. its my blog tak suke jgn bce.. boo... ( da bengong da) then ad sorg ni ckp kat aku " sme cam kao en dpt byk offer tp kao tolak kn.. smelaa cam diorg... bukan tu yg diorg nk.." the problem is hun, itu offer for place.. ni offer people want to give you MONEY 400k-600k?? i dunno.. kan diffrent tuh.. haihh ak ni byk jeoffer duit mne nk cr bai...

not forgeting non bumis yg dpt offer g luar ngra... dlm ngara pown susah nk dpt thu.. dont laa weyy reject for your own sake.. unless like farhana aini's case.. got india so better dont go.. UM is much2 more better.. hmmm x gne laa ckp byk en klu da x dpt tuh.. i know... life goes on be persistent.. just take the mech eng.. end of story..

why??

ape lg yg x cukup?? almost everything he did.. almost perfect man ape lg x cukup??

my mum said could be luck.. he doesnt have the luck on his side thats why he didnt get it.. rumah arini kindda suram.. eventhough lately i barely spoke to him but still i can feel the tense babe.. ouh thought you guys wouldnt understand becos ur nat the one who felt it rite.. dont bother.. but were the one left to feel all of this miserable moment.. after that long crap waiting moment.. which at the end stands for nothing.. aa ahh.. nathaa.. zero..



ermm cgpa 3.75.. cool... ielts ( which costs my mum rm 3500) pown da wat 6.5.. ok laa better than 5.0.. maybe the interview.. but i thought it went well.. man why laa the results yg ptt nye tahu awal bulan delay smpai arini..



perhaps " whatever happen ade hikmahnye" ya rite.. well see..

gettin started

just to tell you guys yg penah ajk ak join blog... thanx for the ivtation..
eventouhgh im a bit late than you guys ( which actually a lot) but who cares... better late than never rite...