Alicia keys : one thing

I spend some time cleaning up the room today. Classes and work worn my brain out. Listens to Alicia Keys new album while zoning out. Had all my coats hanged in the closet, rearranged the dressing table to make more room for my daily handy stuffs like hse keys, phone and glasses. Remembered that tulips are blooming soon so im trying to clear out spaces to put my vases but suddenly found this...


How do i even move on?

Starting class

Im starting my new semester in an hour. Woke up from bed half and hour ago. Havent take my shower yet. Have no idea whats and where my first class is. I think its gonna be some finance class somewhere in business school. No book bought at all not even notebook. Thats how broke i am right now. I dont even hv paper to write my notes for this week! No idea wheres my pencilcase, or if i hv pens in it. Oh my God. I need water. And the best part is its -21 deg celc outside. Maybe i should just get back to sleep. And woke up realizing its still winter break.

Eyes

My eyes hurt so bad it starting to cause me migrain. Its painful to open and close them. This has been going on for so long and it started to worry me since glasses are not helping at all. It affects my ears, nose and making me nauseous too. Nak buat check up but Mara's insurance is rejected here. Hmmmm

Be strong little heart

Yesterday, I managed to live a day without shedding a tear
Round of applause to me
Keeping my self busy with work, friends and family
But that lasted for a day

With friends laughing and enjoying the night from another room
Here i am
On my bed
Curling up with my pillow
And burst into tears
For i am sad that we are no longer together

I cant remember how many ppl scolded me for crying too much over this
Its not because of what you did
But because we didnt work hard enough to fix it
Because we gave up too fast
Because we thought negatively abt each other
Because we didnt trust each other
Because we werent strong as i though we were

I wasnt strong enough
I wasnt good enough for you
I couldnt fit in the ideal characteristic of a woman you desire

May God give me strength
May God bless my heart
May God let me see the blessing in disguise

Broken

I dont want him to go
Its too sad to watch him go tomorrow
Remembering two weeks ago i was the happiest person on earth to see him again
And now hes leaving
Maybe for good
Maybe we will never see each other again
I really dont want him to go
My heart scream not to let him go
But he doesnt want me anymore
So im gonna cry my eyes out again tonight
Maybe tomorrow night too
Just like i used to do
Just like i always do

Mom said love is not just for today
Love is for forever
Why cant we have ours forever?