=(

gosh i hate painful discussion..
coz it hurts so bad..
when im trying to give my all..
but youre not listening
start to give me craps..
wasting all my efforts..
i try to make things better..
but u gimme the same excuses
whenever i tried to tolerate
u seem couldnt careless
let go of ur hand
is not gonna make this happen
*crying*

culture boundry

br laa ak tahu bgaiman payahnye nk memuji diri sdiri...

helo

hai ppl.. hehe..

lately gud things just keep on hppening..
on and on..
until at one point..
it stop..
falls apart..
x lps pointer..

i do feel hopeless, angry, sad for a moment
huh? for a moment?
hehe yalaahh

thanx nbel, piah, nina and nina(kesen)
for three wonderful weekends!
oh yea.. salman oso..
huhu.. best2

now officially im dclaring to all that im broke..
wahahaha

ouh ya.. i hd wonderful dreams oso lately..
rmember bout keqqa thingy??
yeahh dunno why i cried.. seriously babe..
so funny knwing hw when we love someone
weird things just happen..

another thng, i hd a special dream
i flew...
notlike in aeroplane or hlicpter or smthg
its like i hv wings
no no
its like in 'heroes' kan ade one guy yg bole terbang
but he has no wings kan..
haa cmtu lahh
it was SUPER DUPER COOL beb
ak x tipu..
huhuw
i flew across the sea and stopped at a mountain..
all i did was just run along the beach and there i go into the air..
i cn even feel the breeze thru my hair..
wait im freehair in my dream??
wateva..
haha
tp mmg best giler tahap cipan branak spuluh ekor tapir..
hahha (best ke cipn tu?)
so after this ak da x pyh wonder hw is it like to be a bird
fly in the air
across dirty polluted air..
cuz i hd a better expirience
huhuwww
sweetest dream ever..

heyy
watch it!
dun say im crazy just becoz i can FEEL my dreams..
if i cn cried for keqqa i cn also feel myself flying..
its ok just to hv that dream once
becoz its more that enuf
rite?
hehe

p/s: klu rse nk mberi simpati yg mmg ade unsur2 fake X PAYAH. simpan je simpati kao tuh ak x perlu

sedih kuwt

hihi
ehh silap..
isk2 or sob3

ak ilang brodben kat mne ntah..
ak g lbrary pstu ak ykin da smpn blek mnde alah tu
sbb b4 i leave ak da double check..
but still it went missing
then ak went back to the library at night lps sdar psl bnde ni
ttp tade..
abes 5 hengget ak kat macha teksi tu..

then ak pn sedih.. nk buat cmner kan
ble naek bas ak pn bkk la bku agama sbb esok tu test agama
"UJIAN ALLAH"
wow! petepek seketul kat idung ak.. tp b4 ak bace ak da tnm kn sifat2 bserah dgn ktentuanNya ok
haha
then ak pn bce laa bgai nk rak buku agma
test?? susaaaaaaaahhhhhh
salah jawabbbbbbbbbbbbbb
ilang markahhhhhhhh
banyakkkkkkkk
bodoooooooo
uhhhh redha2

jmpe parent d hujung mggu
dpn bodben br yeay
sbnrnye tu bodben abg ak
tp bpk ak trus bg ak nnt dier blikn abg ak bodben len
hehehe
then mlm tu ak online cm gileee

study precalc
yee ak stdy precalc
sbb?? bodben br tu rosak
bodooooooooooooooo
redha2
so lonely jd ak stdy precalc
test??
susaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
eessssssshhhhhhhh
isk3

pastu saket gigi sbb mkn tmpe keras
kne mkn bubur pstu
sedihhh
ble saket gigi da ilang gusi bengkak
besarrrrrrrrrrrr gilerrrrrrrrrrr
ak takut sbb cm nk mletup in any second
saikoooooooo
nk taw cmne??
kao taw cicak?? klu yg pregnant tu kn
buncit pstu cm bule see through sket2 tu kan
haa cmtu aa gusi ak
takut burst dn darah ke nanah ke memncut2
tkena baju dn dinding sket..
kwn kat sbla larii
drh x bhnti hnti..
,buak2 cm rendang.. siap ak isi kecik2 sket
pstu daging tehiris2
bekeping2 jatuh ke lantai
pstu daging tu mngeliat sket cm ekor cicak
yeahhhhhhhh

takut x??
itulh imginasi ak mbayangkn gusi ak ni
hahahhaha
semoga kamu cpt baek ye
bule mkn sushi =]

p/s: ak x mcrut yekk. so bkn sbb kceluparn mlut ak ak kne mnde ni

oke ini bkn post meminta atau mraih simpati
cume nk bg korg bygkn mnde jadi kat dri korg sdiri
pndai2 jge brg
ksimpulannye:
dan GUSI
hahahhahahahah *ouch*

listen

i didnt mean to be harsh..
but i resist to be nice..
things change..
im nt different
but i feel different
losing all my trust..
do not question me
it just the way it is..

huk aloh

pliz dun bjet power in front of me..
coz ure not..
pliz dont act as if ure a hot person..
cox only u who thinks that way..
pliz watch wat ure saying..
coz i feel like slaping you..
pliz dont act as if evrythng in ths world belongs to u..
coz theyre not..
last but not least..
pliz stay away from my sght..
coz u make me sick..
*puke evrytime i saw her*

thanx atikah hanis

time kaseh byk2 ats budi baik kao pg td..
suddenly i dn know who to turn to ecehh
walaupn mnde tu x kne tp time kaseh bribu kali
kao mmg power
puff~~ clap3

amirah majed mngadengade...
hahahhaha tgk dier comment x post ni.. uhuw
yeahh blablabla

p/s: ak ngah mengong.. =DDDDD

cuti2

penang or redang?
time square or kl plaza?
or pavi?
perhaps bukit merah??
choose mama choose.. lalalala

hi hater!

stop faking it coz it is soooooo lame obvious..
really man you make me sick..
"ouh i do this o do tht..."
stupidly you dont do anything..
wat on earth you gugu gaga on smthng like OBVIOUSLY outdated??
and smthg really weird tht you *wow* alone?
duhh wish you learn evrything first b4 u start braging it all over..
yyuuhuuuww dnt act a s if im a bloody moron tht doesnt know anything bout it
you cn lie to toher ppl but when it cme to "ppl who knows"
you really sound like lads who bullshitting unreasonably
just stop faking it coz you are not benefiting mankind idiot!
whatev LOSER

p/s: i wish tfb is here.

aaaahhhh

things are nw scatered here and there...
im drowning!!! got some help from some people...
next to me, far from me, inside me..
including an unknown person..
thanx...

duhh..
uncontrolable things are doing their best in their foremost profession..
to be uncontrol by me..
yet to feel frustrated..

hmmm...
huuuhh..
i shall be thankfull with offers once given by my love...
i shall accept it way early b4..
b4 things turn out this way
or shall i say
rice become porridge?

naahh
not yet.. not yet porridge but this stands in between that
i need more tyme.. giv me
i need more space.. help me
i need you to be sent away..
away from my head, body, and soul..
but youre not for now i know
but you will later the day
which will come soon
so when it come, i shall feel reluctant

im letting u off my hand
im not letting u off my hand
r u gud enuf to stay alone
can u hndle it without me
even when seperated u'll be my key of success
even when i doubt, u'll put evrything aside
even when i hv faith in you, will you never call me back until the day comes
i will be depending on you then..
to help me when we know we are nver goin to meet each other anymore

ironic isnt it
i know.. hehe
its going to be ironic when the time comes
ok ok ill wait
then we'll be apart with 3/4 of my heart goes with u
with nothing from u stay with me..
we both will go further

i just knew it

aaaahhhh
=]

raya 2009

since the past one month i was wondering how is it like my raya dis yer.. imagining wether this is my last raye.. imagining those frends out of msia celebrate their raye.. imagining the diff im probably gonna feel between this yer and next.. how would i feel then.. put that aside as my raye had finished and went well.. appreciating everybody around me and made my life happiest person ever for ths raye.. =DD



blek dr intec on thursday.. went to school tutup pulak.. tape2.. jmaat bli bju raye dkt giant je x jaoh.. due keping cukup la kan.. hehe kat umah set ngan mak nk sapu her old bju kurung not so outdated.. sooo ckup bju raye for ths yer.. hehe iye sye bli bju rye selang sehari blum raye..



sbtu blek kg pgi2 lg... kuala pilah.. smpai2 rendang sdg dikacau, kuah kacang br nk buat, rebusan, daging masak kicap?(ye pelik2 je thn ni), x lupe gulai udang msk lemak cili api, pastu ade plak kueh bakar msk stai traditional.. ngan kek kukus 2 ketul yg memerlukan hmpir 3 jam utk msk setiap satunye dn resultnye kek BATAT! hahahahhahahah (tataw eje).. mlm tu beronggeng dgn 3 org gadis pingitan.. huhuw kesen2 yg bjet hot mredah ke bahau.. kununnye jaoh laa sgt ngan kp tu tp nek kete x pn.. ktorg mbeli belah kesane kemari msk semua kdai yg ade dan spt biase ak x beli ape2.. cehh tp mmg best tgk kesen ak tawar menawar.. serious wa ckp lu.. mantap ow.. "kak, bapo rogho tudung ni kak??.. umangai maha bona ni.. kurang laa sket kak esok da nak ghayo ni takan laa kughang sket pn x buleh ko.. bos mane?" haha cam syiall... pastu pth blek ke kp utk mborong kerepek... yg ni ak bli! hahahah mak ak sroh laa.. ak taw sure korg gelak kn ak sbb ak hye mbeli mknn kan? kn? ak taw dah.. tape2 gelak2!

blek rumah ape lg bperang ngan kg sblah! boom bangg.. wahaha ktorg juare sbb ade mercun yg mcm tgk kt tv tu.. yeahh tp kompem bkn ak lah supplier mndealah tu.. tu pacek ak nye kje ok.. pastu sesi menuntut duit raye dr pacek dan macek.. yess pd satu mlm yo den kayo! tp tyme ni mmg best ak x tipu! (err perluka ak tipu?) siyes klaka.. sume nk lebih je.. kutip due tige kali pn ade (sape lg klu bkn aku).. esh x malu btul..

raye! yeeeeeppiii bju baru kaler biru! hya braye 3 rumah.. wey kao taw ak ade la kn g satu umah ni.. dier msk lodeh mmg mntp ahh.. skjp je lesap lodeh org tu dier kne msk br hehehe.. pastu de laa relatives dier dtg smpai 21 org! pehh mne dihangkutnye tu dah tu bju sume kain yg same.. walaweyy mmg kaye laa nagoya ngan tukang jhit diorg tu.. yg baby2 pn skali pkai bju kain kaler tu.. ktorg pn brmbuslahh sbb rumah tu kecik x muat 21 org tu dn juge sbb lodeh tu da abes.. nnt diorg ngamuk lak klu taw kitorg abeskn lodeh tu so baek ktorg blah dlu ye x?? tindakan paling waras tyme raye.. elakkn pergaduhan..peh merantau ko lobaghoh ta haa blek laa kerumah dan spt biase nonggok dopan tv.. yess mmg best biarlahh sesape yg dtg ak x pdulik..

then raye kdua blek gmbk bg kucing2 yg kbulur kt umah ak tu mkn then tros bgerak ke perak.. penat x pyh ckp laa.. huuuuhhhhh mmg! mmg x penat psl ak tdo je dlm kete.. huahuahua.. smpai2 je trus braye walawey.. mkn laksa lg tuh hehe~ best2 pastu smpai kg jmpe laa sedare2 yg x jmpe btahun lmenye ececee.. esok tu g laa mjlnkn misi braye.. yeah misi ak iyalah mkn rendang sbb rendang perak num 1! dan spt biase ak tataw nape fmily mk ak ni ske hidangkn air sarsi tyme raye.. klu korg ade tgk eklan ribena yg maria tengku sabri tu kn.. haa camtu laa ak harap ade air ribena.. wahahhaa sume rumah kasi air sarsi... skali rumah yg last tu dier hidang air teh! abah kao laa ak nk minum tgh hri bute air teh pns huhuw.. pastu ak ngan lg due org kesen ak beronggeng ke jj ipoh! hahaha berjalan kesane kemari mcari jeans tp tade sale.. dan duit raye aku x smpai hrge jeans so ak bli jaket.. jaoh mnyimpng?? x jugak.. ekceli aircond klas ak da elok so klas ak cm freezer dn sume ak nye jaket yg nipis2 tu mnghabehkn bogheh yo.. huhuw ak bli la yg tebal sket.. sampai umah selesaikn ape yg patut pastu blek kl.

walaopn raye ak thn ni pendek tp penuh kriangan kgmbiraan kenangan! thanx you guys! never thought tis will be one of my greatest raya celebration! sye tumpng sdh kpd mreka yg ade khilangn org tsyg~ may Allah bless them.... tp raye thn ni mmg best! three thumbs up! =D

ngantuk

hoho
apaka
tade kje
wawawawa
keep reading
sbb kao pn tade kje gak
klu x asal kao msh bce
kao x ngtuk ka?
ak ngantuk doh
tp assignment byk ngat
so relek kjp
kao pahal tade kje lain nk buat?
pelik2 je
yea2 ak suke berbahasa malaysia
apaka
hahahah
td ak mkn kuey tiaw goreng woo
kao lak??
ooooo sdp x?
ok ak btul mngarut..
kao enjoy x post bangang cam ni??
klu ye nnt ak wat lg..
cm best doh

ak slalu tetido tyme exam doh
sbb ngantuk
sbb syp sgt
ak ne thn syp2 ni
adoy aiii
haha
kao slalu x??
sure pyer la kan..
sape2 yg bce ni siyes alien
tolong lah
have some respect for urself
adeke duk torture minda mbace crap ak
hahahaha
tp kao mmg power
sbb mental kao kuat
ak suspect ahh sama kao
so?
ape kao rase?
kao rse banggelah kan
x pon kao rse hebat..
ape2 pn slamat bertaubat
yes ak da x ngantuk
sume sbb kao
xoxoxoxoxox

khas buat tfb

dear tfbians (haha) thanx to alya sbb igtkn yg kte ade anversry. thanx to nbel for calling me up that day.. bcoz i was flowerish of you guys i made my assignment based on us.. nyah cam lily.. tp maybe dier cm buruk sbb dier adela technical writing tp mmpuslaa nk post jugak.. haha.. soklan dier classify your friend.... let me warn you its LOOOOOONNNNGGGG (2pages) klu sggup bce laa ye.. =]


Friends. We have a lot of them whether they are next to us or far apart, but the truth is they always have a special room inside our heart. Well, supposed that I have lots of friends down here, I shall classify them to make it easier for you. Basically friends are just normal people that you feel easy being with regardless their look or background status and their existence make you feel life is worthy. There are many ways that one can classify ones friends, but as for me, I would like to classify my friends as different types of teachers. Believe it or not friends do teach us things that we could never learn on our own. There are friends who teach us to be strong and keep on moving, friends who teach us to be motivated to achieve our dream and friends who teach that the world is better if we always have each other.
First and foremost, friends teach us to be strong and keep on moving no matter what come across in our live; its either we observe the way they live their life or opinions they give to us during our ups and down. Everybody is different to make it clear why we have different way of living our lives. Some might hold on to phrase ‘live life to the max’ and some might just ‘go with the flow’. Some friends deal with problems that are so excruciating with enthusiasm and eager to settle it up and some couldn’t care less. Either way makes everybody special and it is up to us to take what is good and what is not to be implemented in ourselves. On the other hand, life could have never been so nice to us most of the time. There are always bitter, sweet and sour experiences blend together resulting true friendship. When I mention friendship it means no individuality but togetherness. When we face triumph, friends always there to celebrate with us yet when we face failure friends stay to share the disappointment. They will support and encourage us to keep on moving and not to give up. One says, “Everyone wants to be happy, nobody wants to live in pain, but you cannot have a rainbow without any rain”. If we know our friends quite well, we will find that they are precious teacher that teaches us value of life without us realizing it.
Secondly, friends teach us to be motivated to achieve our dream by pushing us to put more effort in what we are doing and help us out when we are in need. Everybody have their own dream and ambition that they want to achieve in life. Those dreams are for thousands of good reasons and we have planned to give out the best that we could to reach it. However, as human we often forget and digress with the world of entertainment and friends are the one who reminded us to stay in track. Sometimes we failed, we thought we have put maximum effort into it that it is unfair for us to lose in the battle and friends are the one who would say “are you sure you have done enough? Why don’t you try harder”, that will definitely boast up our will power and push us to do more than before. Besides that, perceptive friends easily know when we are having difficulties and will be more than happy to lend a hand. Crystal clear example is when I have a problem in my studies, who else would I turn to other than friends and lecturer of course. Instead of just teach me the right answer they make sure I understand and make me realize that I am not alone in this struggling journey. Honestly by the help that they gave to me, I felt motivated and ready to strive to achieve what I have dream for and I appreciate them more than they could ever imagine. Therefore, friends are somehow qualified teachers that always show that the power of motivation can bring us far.
Last but not least, friends teach us that the world is better if we always have each other by being there for us and let us know that they will never let go of our friendship. We laugh with them, cry with them, share things with them, being there for them and vice versa and we know deep inside our heart that we could never be what we are today without them. By always being there for us, we learn to take care of each other, tolerate and lessen the feeling of self-centred and individualistic in life. On top of that, friendship become more meaningful when we know each of us will not forget or let go of it. We keep in touch when we far apart and that will never make us lonelier than anyone else. The feeling of security is there when we know we have each other in our heart; therefore, it makes us feel calm and pleased. The world always looks and feels better when we are on cloud nine. It is unimaginable to live in a world without friends because with friends the world is more meaningful.
As a conclusion, friends can be classify as teachers who teach us that the world feels better if we have each other, motivation is a good will power generators that can bring us far and of course to always be strong and keep on moving forward in life. In fact they can be classified by many more categories but I find these suites me best.

aduhai adik ku~

nama diberi fatin nurul hamizah

umur: 12 tahun

perangai? cam kakak dier~(ahaks sile imagine)

kad g dbgi ke ak pd mlm ak blek dr intec

siyes x relate ngan bday

apaka~

saba je la enn...

to nadiaezana

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sings
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through the night
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through the night
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along (along), along (along), along (along), along (along)

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
[x3]

p/s: sal x bule comment kao??

looking forward for a great week to come

oc presentation
precalc qiuz
book review submission
islamic studies assignment
islamic studies test
toastmaster speech+mc+letter to hep
sat practice test
life is goooooodd!
im lovin it

happy belated bday!

wahhhh da lme x pegang laptop.. gian hhahaha.. post ni da lme nak anta tp delay, delay dan delay shingga la d pagi yg hening ini, (br pas azan subuh kuwt) bajet~~ intention blog ini adalah utk mnyampaikn rsa trima kasih kpd mereka2 yg mngingatkn ak ttg bday ak, igt bday ak serta mreka yg x igt dan tlah diingtkn oleh ak.. huahuahua (soo redundant man) ini adala msg2 yg dterima, i try my best utk mngikut kronologi mase

hani: happy bday =)
syah: call me up and didnt forget to tell me 18sx story.. (legal enough)
alyaa: hepi birthday!
shahmi: called me up
celcom: transaksi anda tidak berjaya. tempoh due hr yg dberi utk anda mhantar respon sudah tamat (fine! ak bz laa mase kao anta msg soh konfemkan tu.. so ak lupe.. so pde mlm yg x brape hening tu ak anta dan dgn bgge nye dreply sbegini..)
nisa: fly heppy birthday!
ain: oo bday kao ek hari ni.. ok.. haha.. err happy bday (btw, nisa dan ain adlh housemate ak dan ain tlh mberi hadiah carpet idaman ak yg ade bende serupe plankton aka villi uh. thanx!!!!)
nina: epi bzday.. semoge panjang umuo.. mmuah (i was like epi?? bzday?? is there any hidden meaning or sumthing here? its soo ambiguous.. ahax=p)
sopna: butterflies dont know in what colour their wings are but human eyes know how nice it is. likewise u dont know how sweet you are but i know how special you are.. HAPI BDAY (thanx soppy wlaupn ak rse pantun kao cm sleck gler tp i appreciate ur creativity)
amirah majed: Happy birthday sayang! semoge pnjg umur murah rezeki!
mama: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
piah: mms notification error (duhh)
abah: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. your mama and i wil always be supporting you in all your endevours. we'll give you all the assistance we possibly can. we love you very much (haha this is the sweetest among all)
sharmini: fly!~~ happy bday~~
anas: lpe lak nk wish. Happy birthday farah.. hehe (we had a conversation earlier and he forgotten) apaka~
ainur: fly..!!! hang da tido ke?? awat besday girl tdo awal sgt.. weyh. ak nk wish ni, hepi besday!! hohoho.. jgn igt ak lupe bday kao. i never 4get k.. haha.. fly, ble nk celebrate? meh ak blanje mkn pizza free.. huah3. fly ak jd org last y wish kao x?? hohoho (wat derr.. tyme ni ak penat gler dan x phm kjadh nye msg ni yg ak phm kao da tdo ke? sbb pastu ak trus tdo.. x smpt bce abes kuwt~~waktu semase:10.15pm haha)
alya: fly.. bday kao ble?~ (yeahh considerable laa ni hahahhahahha... pastu ak call dier laa dan mexpresskn rse "syak wataksangka sama lu" sal awal ngat mnah ni bgn.. rpenye dkejut liliy.. dan ak tkejut juge krane dier tlh dkuarentin...)
shaza: fly sory i forgot, yesterdaywas ur bday rite? huhu, hapy blated bday (i called her earlier wish bady dier,6.8, suare siyes rock gler beb.. ak igt jntn mne lak ni.. hhahahahah)

ade juge d dlm fcebook tp ak x dpt recall laa you guys nye msg.. but for sure thanx fazrin, ung choo, ouh sape lg ye????

btw... pada mlm 5 hb ak sibuk mhafal word sat.. wlaopun result tade laa power mne en.. pstu ade laa yg ak wat mlm tu.. ye! ak juge tlh dinner bsame fmily ak hehe... then ak tdo dlm kul 1.35.. awal kan?? hahahhaha sbb otk da conjested tgk tenet yg slow.. then bgn dgn pnuh hrpn kul 4.15 utk mnyiapkn assignment islamic studies : teori evolusi meracuni pemikiran insan sejati~~ then ke kls cam bese.. ptg test sat d dlm old library yg sungguh sejuk.. fuchimak! then bncg sat d dlm new library yg jge sjuk.. then brmbus dr intc kul 8++ then mbeli belah d cndane.. ye sye bungkus kuey tiaw goreng pataya! then dgn pnt yg thp ghaban tu naek tgge ke tgkt 5 br je nk bring2 da kuar plak siren buduuh tu soh g meeting block.. damn~~~~ ak sumpa penat giler weyy... bdn ak siyes huyung hayang!! pastu ak sgt pns dan x larat rse nk collapse.. abes je ak tros bring bselubung dgn slimut sbb sgt sjukkk... tp mngenangkn kuey tiaw ak uh ak bgn jap nk mln.. iye malang mmg x pernah mngeluarkn bau.. kuey tiaw ak transform mjadi nasi! apaka~~ last thing i remembered that night was ainurs sms.. hahahaha

eeiihh pe kes kao?!

ok.. pd suatu hari yg hening... ouh x "pening" sbb ak kuar ngan lily dan alya soo jd pening.. x lupe juge plakon tmbhn shaza dan izzat.. serta prop iaitu hazim kluar ke ts. ini bukn crite nye hrp mklum.. ape org kate appetizer! btw, it was fun =]

ok tyme blek uh ak try contact farah ndiah.. dun asked y becoz im not goin to tell u.. but im goin to explain.. ok memandangkn ak de workshop on this weekends d taylors college dan ak tamaw sesat spt ruse masuk kmpung so ak decide nk contct shabat handai yg mmg mnapak dsne.. ak da ce contct malin kundang tp berjaye. ~~ ye ak kate berjaye walaupun mletakn pkataan tp dhpn.. sbb ak suke pelikn korg.. sbbnye ak x dgr spth hrm un yg dier ckp.. yg ak dgr "ha?!/ blablabla/ ouh ha" duhh ble dsmbungkn siyes x jd ayt..

then ak dok tye org num farah ndiah sbb dier un stdy stu gak.. uhh.. tp x bjaye.. sbb?? ntah ak pn x psti.. maybe pmilik mxs or celc adlh kesen dier so dier tukar num stiap hr.. apadaa~ then ak tringat kpd buku kramat yg ak br kutip d seseri td.. jgn buat mke tkejut srupe beruk! then ak pun crlaa muke minah ni dan detact laa num dier.. setelah save kn num tsebut ak dgn lmah lmbut nye kol.. ouh tp dier x angkat.. (ak un x psti pe yg lmbut dsini) but then ble ak ltk je dier kol ak blek...

dier: hello
aku: hello
dier: awk ade kol num ni td en?
ak: ha ah.. err frh ndiah ade??
dier: ermm tade.. bule sye taw ni spe?
ak: err frh ndiah ade? (ok ak mmg pekak!)
dier: tade bule sye taw nme awak
ak: err tape laa (eh mamat ni mlebih pulak)

end of conversation... ak un delete laa contct yg x bguna tsebut, walau pun ak de tpk maybe itu abg dier ke yg gne fon num uh.. tp tapelaa.. buat ape smpn klu x bulekontct dier en... huhuw.. wajar!

then apabila smpai drumah.. mamat uh call.. ak mle2 psn num uh dan bharap frh ndiah yg kol (mnetaw td dier g kdai ke.. wasbudi ke en.. walaupun sbnrnye dier tggl di perak) tp ble d angkat hp org tu ltk plak..aihh kjadahnye org ni.. ak cm bese optimis..maybe tsalah tkan kuwt.. sian dier hopefully dier x turun kdt atau x berase malu..

nmpknye hrpn ak mmg tepat.. dier x brase malu dan x malu lgsung... duhh.. dier mule msg ak berbunyi bgini... jeng3 =

dier: adk, sory ya, abg nkbuat burik jb,k
ak: im sory, u want wat?
dier: phm x burit tu ape?
ak: x
dier: ok mknenye tgh nk buat anak!
ak:ouh u mean fuck? wat r u trying to say actually? sory laa, im an educated person and i dont fuck or let other people fuck me.

skian trima kaseh! huahuahuahuahua..
p/s: smpai skang ak mseh x dpt kontact frh ndiah!

kalao ak kate ak da normal?

pekah yg korg rse part dlm diri ak ni kurang normal??
slain mental ak of course! ini x bule buat apa lahh..
huhuw

think carefully.. when u know it u'll be happy to know that im normal!
same as u guys!! dn tdak tlmbt k! huahuahua

sob..sob..

have u ever expirienced something that uve done ur best, you do it whole heartedly, and suddenly becoz of something beyond your control destroy it?! guess you have.

hrmmm, i hte when i get this feeling.. i know im not briliant or genius, but i want to be a good student, do my best to achieve the highest marks no matter what it takes. ask lecturer no matter how stupid my questions are. try my best no matter how difficult the test will be. i will! but even when i did everything, everything i could, sometimes luck is not by my side.

i CARE even it is only 10%. i dun give a sh*t if u dont. i need that really badly. please God help me in this journey. You r the only one i can turn to. its just so frustrating knowing you cannot control everything and yet those thing put you in danger as if its your life we're talking about. (hyperballs). whatever it is, ill overcome it eventhough it need tears and sorrow, i will face it brave enough to prove that you got the right person here scholargiver, capable to handle anything come in her way. fearlesshoneyisflyingupintoherownsky.

settling up again.. again?

hai people, how are you?? im great!! having bunch of good frens, helpfull seniors, great lecturers and surely live my life to the fullest here man.. thank God for everything..



i had my sat practice test last wed.. (it sucks) hahaha no comment about it.. but my situation is not as bad as my fren who started to hate english.. hahahha so funny... we only have eng, eng, eng, eng,eng, precalculus and is. imagine that!! perghhh... but i luv it a lot!! (saje bajet nk mnyedapkn hati) well.... i cant imagine that one day i wil have the kind of study life that i rally want... seriously... gosh



guys, wat i can tell you here is no matter wat happen just help anybody aroud you who are in need.. smile to everybody.. be approachable... respsect each other.. appreciate life! then you'll find yourself worht living for.. hahaha why am i writing things like this??

to my dear icecream,
god!!! im soo sorry that i still unable to remember your name... do your best in ur trial.. and wether ur result is superb or disasterous its not the end of the world... if you did well, bigger thing will come soon and if if you didnt, trust yourself that you can make it through.. ive made it good enough for me and knew that i couldnt do better. do not take this as heart cracking exam that you can die at any moment now, but feel eager to take it.. yeah its difficult to not feeling doubt of yourself, but by feeling that way.. your mind wil work better.. be thankfull that you have everybody you love around you, you can eat anything you want, you can do watever you want to and you are a lot more FORTUNATE than those people stucked in prison S. so definitely youll perform better.. remember the only thing that will save you is your trustworthy towards yourself!! i failed my admath paper eversince until trial but i managed to achieve a1 in spm... not boasting around here just giving a clear example that mind setting do made a large impact in ourselves.. k dear?? if you have any problem you can always contact me.. i will always be there for you..

denver

hai hai hai... today is the first class in intec.. as im in the d class so this means that im in the third floor.. ouh yeahh which means that i have to go dowm five floor and climb up three floor every morning and vice versa every evening.. but its okey since my class mate are all gempaks... huhuw..

we have atun, yas, hani, evon, jamine, jia bin, lawrence, and adrew as the front row people.. second row of course me, mini, nisa, adip, syed, afiq, kimi, and also omar... and the last row is ung choo, yong, fan, huat, akira(japanese name with no japanese blood at all) and also the craziest gajen.. impress how i could memorise their names just in four hours time??? hahhahahaha im good man...

ouh first class was with ustaz muslikhin.. i sumtimes dun exactly understand what hes saying but from what i know he is such a great person.. he went to like 9 country with his own money.. yeah HIS OWN MONEY!! not from scholar or even fama which stands for fadermader.. hahahha impressive gler beb wa ckp lu... then he gave us video clip regarding islam.. touching beb.. no goin to tell lots on that but honestly i think ive should watch it when i was form5 becoz with visual ways i understands more about the islam history than just reading the history book (which i dont haha) seriusly it makes sense than just memorizing.. if im not mistaken the title was "change your paradigm"...

then usel01 with miss asma.. yeay!! she is so damn fun.. hahahahhahaha funny type of person and like to talk a lot... i luv her attitude.. her advices are acceptable.. hehe becoz sumtymes advices from diff people just doesnt make sense like the one my brother gave me one night.. "kao jgn pandai2 nk isap rokok" while smoking.. wth?? hahahaha... well so far my class so gud lahh.. its just that we are going to have sat practice test EVERY WEEK.. so im now starting to discover what and how the test is going to be.. yes i know its a bit early by looking at my frens who still lepaking away.. but we know our inner ability rite, and i am a slow learner.. have to start early stuggle more just to be on par with them and if not better... sumore i'll be taking my toefl this year so despite all my loving lepaking kinda life i have to forget them build a new one.. usefull one.. hahahah ok laa actually im studiying sat online.. hahaha saje je melencong kjap..

intec

ok beb as ive promised to you guys that i will be updating stuff rite.. so here we go..

first of all, registration day.. ak grak awal ahh sampai2 je tepat2 kul 8.. sure korg rse "peerghh smngat sial kao!!" hahahha x ahh taw2 je laa parent ak en.. hikhik.. then ak g laa kolej br ak yg bername akasia.. umah ak beralamat 2/502... tinggkat pling atas doe.. tinggkat 5.. okeyh umah ak tade lif so jgn byk tye. korg blum tgk rupe dier lg.. cam kne tsunami.. hihi.. umah da laa lme tggal so like bhabuk giler doe.. tmpt hang bju byk taik burung mpati yg buat sarang kat bumbung.. have i mentioned ak tggl tingkat pling atas?? so sbb tu ak sgt terkesan.. tapi tape ak suke binatang.. so ak x kesa laa..

sampai2 je cmpk brg then of we go tu giant yg bdekatan.. oh ye mksd bdekatan ialah "dekat" walking distance maa... bli ahh brg2 yg spatutnye utk kerja pbersihan umah br.. x lupe g lunch kat mcd sbb nk mkn bubur.. isk3 ak sedey tgk adek ak dpt mkn big mac.. shit ahh... ak mkn fries un x lps cam sial.. tape2 ak mmg byk bsaba mnde da lps en... so mlm uh ak cam femes ahh kjp sbb phulu orientasi uh tye laa sape alergic/vege ect... tp x de plak tye spe x bule mkn.. soo ak syp ahh en.. tp ak bgtaw ahh sorg akak ni yg ak sket gigi.. dlm mse beberape minit rmai gle org taw yg ak x bule mkn ape2 kcuali bubur.. ok wtf?? hahhahahaha soo depe kate ahh.. starting from tomorrow (mon) depe akn bg ak bubur..

monday.. tade un bubur.. soo dsebabkn ak tanak mnyusahkn org dgn memeakse depe msk bubur ak ameklaa inisiatif sdiri dgn minum milo spanjang hari.. mahu laa 4 kotak milo.. haihh mber ak kate g laa bgtaw org uh.. mntk bubur.. ak kate "tape ahh ak x rse yg ak akn mati sbb x mkn ape dan ak pown rse bhwe ak layak utk jd model milo.. sbb milo buat ak kenyng" hahhaha ayt bjet sbb tanak bg depe rsao.. honestly?? ak lapar sial... soo esoknye gigi ak da baek.. sbb ak rjen mkn ubt da ak x hegeh soh org amek phatian kat aku..

btw, ak amek kos ADFP which stands for american degree foundation programme dan iye ak under mara.. population mara sgt2 laa sdikit.. skadar 51 org berbanding jpa yg mpunyai angkatan perang sramai 600++.. tp tape ak x kesa sbb tu bukan laa mslh yg bsr.. duit alowwence ktorg sme jeh.. huahuahua.. adfp adlh program yg TER-HAVOC kat sni.. so imagine laa dri ak yg bakalan mbuat bising sesuka hati sbb ak adlh seorg adfpian.. ouh sounds saiko man...

not forgeting my faci yg gempak gler sial.. sal ak byk mcarut ni?? dier sgt baek.. adfp.. da abes daa bkl fly bulan 8 ni... siyes mberi smngat lbeyh sbb slalunye kite akn dgr org ckp "si polan uh da fly da.." "si polan uh da balek daa dr oversea" tp kite x penah knal rapat un ngan dier.. berbual or even tye rahsia bjaye... yg ni sbb dier ade d dpn mte.. real.. da pena lalui hdp yg bkal kite tempoh.. len rsenye knal same org yg btul2 suda bjaye melepasi thp yg kite duduki berbanding mngetahui kwujudan org yg telah bjaye or abes uni.. feeling uh lbey sket.. hikhik.. orientasi?? the best orientasi ever.. sumpa x tipu asek gelak je.. sume lepak je.. tade ahh rush sane sni senior sume gmpk sey x mcm kat pjare s dlu en.. upss x sume k.. then rse sdey cma nk nges ble orintasi tamat.. haihh tacing btol

ak dok apartment due bilik.. satu bilik 2 org.. soo ade 4 org dlm umah ni... mreke bname ain, nisa, dan voon... btw, voon org srawak.. sgt cumey.. hikhik.. bes ahh diorg.. ak as ussual x bule duk diam... asek nk berborak.. tp laptop siyesly complete my life beb.. klu x ak akn bce nst brulang kali sbb tataw nk borak psl ape lg. mama x kasi ak balek... dier kate "x pyh blek umah kalau tade ape2 yg penting" smlm (sat) nisa blek umah since friday, ain kluar g explorace sumthing, voon g sunway.. ak?? dok umah.. mengemas umah yg da bersih ni.. basuh tandas/ tmpt hang bj yg penuh taik burung.. mop lantai/ cuci tingkap/ sume bnde yg bule ahh.. pastu penat tp busan soo ak gosok sume baju yg ak ade.. saiko x?? tp ak tade laa smpai nk gosok yg kecik2 tu en... kang shrink plak.. hahhaha.. pastu busan lagi g laa kuar ke cc (laptop br dpt arini) on9 laa sjam then chow g mkn.. bjet ahh nk save duit g mcd 4 mc value lunch en.. paling2 rm6++ skali tyme nk byr tuh jm menandakan kul 3.05.. malang mmg x berbau soo ak abes laa rm10... mkn sorg2 mmg bosan bg spesis mcm ak.. soo ak kol laa sape2 bg teman ak mkn.. yea ak mkn smbil kol org.. maw laa 3-4 org ak borak.. tape ak x kesa.. upax mura maa... hahhahahha mlm uh save duit mkn nestum paket je.. bukan tade wang cume ak rse yg ak ni agak x bragak berbelanje.. arini mkn dtanggung oleh abh huhuahua..

td kat ole2 g bli jam.. ape itu ole2? shoping complex..cam sial je nme.. tade mnde yg intresting un kat stu.. ak mntk jam bukan sbb ape... aritu orientasi abes ari kames.. jmaat ade test.. ak mmg da lupe ahh add math en.. calculator ak just igt nk on dan off je.. soklan bapak senang diw x tipu.. tp ble kite lupe dier jd frustrating gler thp ghaban.. tapi tape ak x kesa.. sbb ak dabese da duk klas last.. cam sumthing yg normal laa klas last ni bg ak huahuahua... so mase uh ak tetinggal fon bwh bntal so ak atde jam... so ak tataw mse utk exam uh.. so ak cam jwb laju2 takut x sempat.. so result cam cibai.. so again ak x kesa...kat sni ak da jd cam kesen mrbean sbb asek plok teddy...
pe lagi ek?? td bli bju kurung sbb kat ole2 byk gler ahh kedai bju..

ak un da tataw nk tulis pe beb.. ni je la kuwt wat mse ni.. papehal t ak update agi.. k take care..

dentist+potong rmbut

arini sedey..
pgi2 tjage sbb saket gigi.. so as ussual ak amek laa pain killer en.. so ble dikre2 sjk smlm ak da telan 10biji.. tatahan beb.. situasi dier.. gigi x bule btemu gigi.. tp klu x btemu pown saket jugak.. senang cter gigi uh x bule btemu ape2 pown tmasuk laa angin sepoi2 bhase.. so pas mkn tetido blek.. bgn2 ade buah kat ats meje.. wahhh ade manggis yum2... ade rmbutan juge!! pas mndi bjet laa nk bntai enn pastu ak pown mkn laa mggs tu slow gler beb wa ckp lu.... then mkn rmbutan.. satu biji uh stengah je ak dpt telan.. pastu malang x berbau gigi ak terkene gigi tu.. (pe pyer ayt daa) hahahahha then g laa jmpe dentist.. ade due org b4 ak.. bnde bpk lme dow!! bpk ak ckp " abh rse sume gigi dier lobang kuwt" hahhaahhaha.. ak pown ckp la cm byi kambing "eehhh copek la oghang ni.. oghan len pown saket gak"dgn mulut yg x bule tutup...

smpai turn.. ouh sebaek ak lom transform mjdi hulk da musnah kan klinik uh sbb lmbt ngat.. so da smpai uh.. baring laa cm bese..

doc: saket ye?? mane saket?? (sambil gnekn pncungkil dier touch2 ak nye gigi slow2)
aku: haa yg tuh (byi cam kambing sbb mulut kne rompak)
doc: ouh yg ni ye??

PEHTU ADE KE DIER DGN SLAMBERNYE G TENYEH2 GIGI AK YG DA MMG SAKET UH.. SIALANN!!!!!! AK PYER LAA PREVENT ANYTHING TEKENA GIGI AK UH DIER BANTAI REDAH KE KOREK2 GIGI AK NGAN MNDE ALAH UH... HAIHHHTATAW KE SAKET BUDU..

mate ak brair sbb sdey lme gler ak tggu thn sket dpt kat mach uh lg saket.. pastu bini dier bg laa ubat kat ak.. (ak tataw laa bini dier ke x sbb sme2 india)

si bini: ok adekk, u kasi mkn ini ubat.. sbiji,3 kali sehari.. yg ini pown sma juga.. yea?? kasi itu mulut kumur2 sama air garam
aku: haa ye laa
doc: u pnya mulut itu gigi suda ada goyang sikit.. u kasi mkn itu ubat kasi tgk ada kurang.. kalu tade u dtg sni kite kasi cabut itu gigilahh
aku: haa?? err ye la..(dlm hati: takan laa smpai kne cbut kuwt.. rongak laa ak haihh.. dlm otk: bpe byk pkataan kasi daa)
dlm kete ak belek laa ubat uh.. ade ke depe bg 4 ktul je ubat uh.. dah tu satu hari je laa ubt tu ak bule gnekn.. siallannn

sampai umah mak msk.. ikan bakar.. sotong bakar.. ngan ketam sweet sour... wahh sdp nye.. sotong uh ak yg pilih kat psir pnambang.. bsr2 fresh2.. ak dpt telan due potong je... ketam uh ak mkn skit jee tu pown sebaek ketam uh lembut cam tofu so ak pkai telan je.. pastu mak ak kate
"mlm ni nk makan kat luar, celebrate kamu ngan abg da nk msk blaja"

ak x dpt thn tros nges... "makk.. jgn laa hari ni.. org saket gigi x dpt nk mkn pown" sume org glakn ak... abg ak kate" ntah ape2 laa kao ni".. ak sket dow.. merane gler... ak yg nges pown tgelak skali sbb ak x sangke ak nges.. bpk super duper sensitif ak hari ni.. da sme plak ngan status lily.. hehe soo ak tros nges smpai abes mkn cume volume slow ahh smpai laa ak naek ats on9...

pastu ak g gunting rmbut.. kat stu ak tade laa nges enn.. pastu dgn rmbut ak yg smkin cun mnyebabkn ak cam excited gler... wahhahahahaha... riak laa plak en.. tu laa cter ak arini.. soo ak tataw laa ak g ke tak mlm ni.. hopefully fmily ak cancel laa eh x postpone.... klu x sdey gler tgk org mkn steamboat..... huahuahuahuahua....

wahhh

ok.. smakin dkt 28hb ni smkin kerap ak bukak page intec.. smangat gler kao doe.. ouh hahha agak ahh bukan pe.. ak cam excited tgok subjek2 yg bkal ak blaja.. wahh excited sbb mostly x pena blaja:

ACADEMIC PROGRAMME / SUBJECTS
English
Mathematics
Computer Programming
Islamic Education Studies / Moral Studies

Non-Science :
Accounting
Business
Economics
Psychology/Sociology
Science i.e. Biology, Chemistry and/or Physics

hahhahah best x?? "psychology"?? err.. hahahhahahahhahahahahahahah intan tringat kao dow... SAIKO!!

x cukup ngan tuh ak dok belek uni yg dier offer kat us t... mnde ni laa yg mbkar smngat ak utk blaja btol2!!!! yeahh korg doa kn ak bjaye weyhh... x saba nk blaja!! siyess!! dlm mse 14 bulan akn dtg ak bkal tahu d mane ak akn pegi...

PLACEMENT
Brandeis University
Brown University
Carnegie Mellon University
Case Western Reserve University
Colorado School Of Mines
Cornell University
Duke University
Georgia Institute Of Technology
Harvard University
Indiana University, Bloomington
Iowa State University, Ames
Johns Hopkins University
Lehigh University
Marquette University
Massachusetts Institute Of Technology (MIT)
Michigan State University, East Lansing
Northwestern University
Ohio State University, Columbus
Pennsylvania State University
Princeton University
Purdue University, West Lafayette
Rensselaer Polytechnic Institute
Rochester Institute Of Technology
Rutgers University, New Brunswick
Stanford University
Stevens Institute Of Technology
Suny, University At Buffalo
Suny, University At Stony Brook
Syracuse University
University Of Arizona
University Of California, Berkeley
University Of California, Davis
University Of Chicago
University Of Delaware
University Of Florida, Gainesville
University Of Illinois, Urbana-Champaign
University Of Iowa
University Of Michigan, Ann Arbor
University Of Minnesota, Twin Cities
University Of Pennsylvania
University Of Pittsburgh
University Of Southern California
University Of Texas , Austin
University Of Virginia
University Of Washington, Seattle
University Of Wisconsin, Madison
University Park
Virginia Polytechnic Institute & State University
Washington University, St. Louis
Yale University

gosh i cant wait to perform well and shut the f*cking mouth of those people who always been look down on me... you guys will see that im better than b4.. dream big fly!! you can do it hahahhahaha

tribute to the "dream big"

In a moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust its longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try'
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

All your worries,
leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's nothing else
And the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust its longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try'
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

And when you're down and feel alone,
Just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

In a moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Fly
forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try'cause it's your timetime to fly

In a moment, everything can change

p/s: ak bkn puji diri yea... this is one of my fav song tyme f5.. hehehe

dream big

adakah salah kalau kte mpunyai impian yg besar??
adakah untung kalau kita selalu mimpikan yg terhebat??
adakah rugi klu impian kite slalu mahukan yg terbaek??
kene bayar ka?? kluar duit ka?? just skadar mbina impian??
atau klu kte mahukan pencapaian tertinggi yg termampu.. adaka lagu2 hebat spt issabela by search akn dissapear??

tidak bukan?? habuk pown x tegugat en?? peluh pown setitik kte x rugi kalau kte menghiasi mimpi dgn bnde2 yg indah.. duniawi?? mungkin.. akhirat?? pasti.. pusrawi?? x perlu..

ini bukan laa sajak ataw gurindam.. just mahu mngajak kwn2 ak sype mbuka mate, minda, utak dan bukan yg len... korg.. hidup kite ni skali.. sume taw.. no doubt kcuali klu korg ni ade genetic kucing yg mpunyai 9 nywe.. tu tpkse exclude ahh.. so?? tanak ke yg tbaek?? walaupun susa.. x mahu ka?? tipu laa klu x.. ak x bodo cm quiz2 fcbook kate.. kite manusia.. nafsu kuat.. mahu itu mahu ini..

klu ak kate ak ade impian nk mpunyai satu negara.. ape korg rse?? x pown ak nk jd org tkaye di dunia.. ataw ak nk hidup sratus tahun.. ak nk jd org tpandai d dunia.. wat do you think?? "pe ni fly, ngarut ahh takan dapat capai pyer" or "hahhahaha klaka ahh kao ni.. mmg superb klu mlawak".. ermm mcmne klu ak kate ak nk jd fakir?? nk kje takat jual apam blek kat psr mlm?? pe yg rse?? "ish kao ni, cr laa mnde yg elok sket"

korg pasan x yg sbnrnye kite ni tanak hidup kite jd terlalu low.. sbb kte rse kte lbh dr itu.. sbb kte rse trf kte lbh power dr fakir.. sbb kte blagak yg kite lg pndai.. sbb kite rse org pndg tggi kat kte... sbb kite lbeyh btuah dr depe then korg pasan x yg korg x nk diri korg jd sumone yg super power.. korg rse mnde tu cam mustahil utk dcapai.. bnde mngrut utk org2 bese cam kite.. yg kite x spandai itu.. yg kite x sebetuah itu... then tbuktilahh kite ni xde pndirian..

korg,
semua bnde start dgn impian a.k.a cita2... pe slhnye kite mpunyai impian yg bsr spt: ak mau jd org thebat d msia.. bsrkn impian tu?? ce klu thebat d dunia.. lg hbt bukan.. x msk jail kn klu korg enlarge kn dream korg tuh (except laa korg korg nk jg org thbt di dunia dgn mbunuh bush mmg laa msk jail) then start kejar impian tuh... halangan?? mmg ade.. byk.. susah.. berat.. tp impian korg kn besar... smelahh klu korg maen mafia wars.. klu cable korg besar.. boss yg shebat mne pown korg bule kalahkn en.. so?? its not a big deal rite??

alaahh fly ckp senang.. ok look.. antare uni yg tehebat d dunia like harvard/cambridge/oxford.. nk msk x?? "ermmhh x pena tpikir pown weyh, susa kuwt.. len ahh klu kao genius" ouhh cmtuh.. abestu korg pk bribu2 org yg msk stu plus bpuluh2 rbu yg da kuar dr stu sume genius la?? wahh klu cam tu mmg terel lahh rkyt bumi.. rmai gle yg gnius.. come on laa guys, reality is reality.. korg rse adeke smpai sbyk itu golongan tpilih ni?? mesti ade portion bg mreke yg average yg bjaye.. x mstahil.. berkat usahe/doa/IMPIAN.. see?? rse ape yg ak ckp ni make sense kan??
so ce ckp npe korg rse mstahil.. ak slalu ingat one thing yg mak ak slalu remind ak (maybe sbb tu laa ak slalu igt hihi" *klu org laen bule buat knpe kite x?* sbb tu ak slalu igtkn kwn2 ak bnde yg sme.. usahe doa ak x nafikn kpentingan dier.. tp klu x bjaye kte x nyesal... ak da rse kekalahan yg ak tanggung tanpa pnyesalan... ringan dada sbb tahu i never couldve done better... becoz ive done my best

so kwan2.. jumlahh bina impian yg besar..spe yg amek mdic mimpilaa utk mjd yg pling byk slmtkn nyawe.. spe yg amek engineering mmpilahh spye mjadi engineer thbat d dunia, spe amek law mmpilahh mjadi law yg undefeatable, spe yg amek mtrk mmpilah pointer tratas.. sbb itu yg tbaek utk kite dan sah2 kite sdiri tahu.. as for me im looking forward to get the highest pointer that i could so that ak bule pegi at one ofthe greatest university kat us... pilihan uni mmg byk.. tp yg terbaik hye satu... dan yg satu itu laa yg ak kejar.. amin..

dentist

ok adaka anda prasan bhw saya kluar stiap hr??.. so statement ak kuar hr ni x de laa bsr mne.. pagi2 lg ak da bgn laa.. mberi support kpd parent ak yg nk pegi ke pjbt.. ak siap kn bekfes.. tuangkn kopi.. bukakkn gate.. kiss pipi depe.. GOTCHA!! hahahhaha pepagi lg ak msh tido lahh.. sory ak x sesolehah itu kui3.. ok dlm kul 9 ak da mndi ahh baek x?? first thing ak pegi is kdai gmbar utk print out gmbr.. xkn baiki kete lak en.. then ak ngan bpk ak pown g lahh ke slayang.. bank islam utk byr yuran pdftarn intec uh... amek laa num.. yeahhh num btuah ak ialah jeng3x 1068!!! wahhh wang bsr uh, sure mantop hadiah dier.. (ayt bjet klu dpt cbutan btuah) pastu tgk skrin num current is 1024.. wtf?? err so g laa mlntak dlu.. tempe kdai uh sdp dow..

bla da smpai kaunter oficer uh cam baran ahh ckp sumpa lju gler ak pown x dpt catchup.. yg ak wat just angguk2 j.. ble tyme cop borang --> BANG!! BANG!! ouh itu gimik e.. dier x tembak ak pown cme hntak meje tu sampai bgoyang... so sbb nak ksi abg uh cool down ak pown sengeh laa nmpk gigi ak yg saket uh.. tp ak x rse dier cool down pown.. maybe dier nmpk lobang kat gigi ak tu x... sory ahh bang..

then ak g laa ke cimb.. amek num pin br sbb lpe.. well bkn sngaje lpe tp sbb ak x pena actvatekn acount uh so tataw laa... the sbb truje sgt ak pown test laa due tige mchine.. cocok sne cocok sne.. sje nk tgk duit ak yg x sbrape uh... cm jakun gler.. lps puas hati yg kad ak serta atm mchine tu bfungsi ak pown bla ke dentist...

smse d clinic uh tade org... ak ak pown ngan kool je msk.. dier start dgn mbersihkn gigi ak yg ak da gosok srta kumur ngan colgate plak pg td.. bgge.. then tyme dier cuci uh.. ummaanggaaii sumpa saket.. ekceli ngilu ahh tp sket jge.. dier ade pbntu malay aw.. kje dier sedut lemak.. acah je sedut air liur ahh.. she was very distracting and annoying... pkai redah je mulut ak yg comey ni... hekhek.. tesedak ak ckp cmtu?? sje je bg rempah2 sket dlm mskn ak ni.. then ak jge ade tetelan besi hasil drpd kerja doctor tu mngorek gigi ak.. soo sore throat ak sam dtg blek, cme x truk sgt laa.. tp ak cam chuak ahh.. tetelan besi kuwt mne taw jd bio-nik ke nnt.. bule slmtkn dunia... wahhh..

flashback cmner gigi ak bule prob.. pade suatu ketike dlu.. d zmn kanak2 bye ak brumur 17 thn.. ak ngah yo yo o amek exam kat dewan.. mslhnye tyme tu kan "kanak2" so ak pown mkn laa chewing gun eh gum... gler ke gun barai ahh gigi ak cmtuh.. well ak wat camtuh sbb ak dok blakang.. sbb seatak blakang tyme uh.. ak mmg excited so ak mlntak je tyme exam.. tyme paper len ak siap mkn mangge lg kutip sblh lab chemist.. slalunye ngan mira mjed ahh... ak ngan stai nye mkn laa mgge tuh tyme exam.. excuseme mgge tu da dbsuh ye.. ok back tu the story.. tyme uh mgge tade yg gugur so ak mkn chingum.. tgh kunyah2 ngan syoknye tetibe besi tmpaln d gigi ak tpecah.. maybe sbb ak kunyah ngan ganas so dier x tahan ngan friction.. so cam bderai ahh serpihan2 besi tu dlm mulut ak.. ak tekejut.. tgamam.. nk bgn g toilet tp yug jge dewan was miss vas.. so ak mkin takut.. ak mmg takut ngan dier weyh cam budu.. so jln pnyelesaian ak was keep on kunyah so that besi2 uh mlekat kt chingum uh so tadelaa bsepah cebisan2 besi tuh dlm mulut ak.. tp teori ak mjadi 50% jeh.. mle2 mau laa mlekat tp mkin dikunyah mkin byk plakk dier bderai.. fookimakk... hahhahahaha last2 ak g jgk laa tnds.. sebaek miss vas kasi klu x mmg ahh ak bkeluli.. hahahahahaha klaka ahh...

so cmtu lahh kesahnye cmner gigi ak blobang blek.. tragis x.. sob3.. then pas g dentist ak pown bgerak ke ijok!! yeay2 pegi ke psir pnmbg utk mbeli udg galah yg besar dan sotong yg pnjg gler... hahhahahaha best dmkn bgitu shje... well ak mmg ske mkn mnde x msk.. dier raw rse mnis.. klu knyah uh dier cam kenyal2 sket tp mrvelous ahh rsedier.. ce korg test.. ok ak tipu lg.. ak takn mkn laa klu ade drh2 sume.. eeuuwww... dan klu udg dan sotong tu br brenang dlm ais kat psr tu mstahil laa ak mkn.. hahahhaa

pastu g rumah ainur atikah!!!! wahahahahha bpk dier borak ngan bpk ak ktorg lakk borak hal remaje.. cewahh... kakak ainur hidang cucur udang ngan keledek goreng.. x lupe air oren.. tp ak x rselaa ainur wat kuih tu enn dier kn pmls.. hahahhahahaha dier ngan bpk dier sme je.. ade ciri2 wakil rkyt.. HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHA... gilo.. then blek rumah bodben msh x bule on.. ak mls nk cter pgduhn bpk ak ngan cine lowyat uh.. sbb cam cbai... ouh nnt slek je blog ak yg super duper hebat.. ok ak tpu korg lg.. hehh ak da gler skett maybe efect besi2 yg ak da telan ni atau efect sbb ak ngah dgr lagu from cradle of filth ni...

lagulogah..

ahhh after a few hectic days.. now i have a chance to update my blog and pour evrything that have been stuck in my bouncing head.. i need to really get it out of there.. poor mr. heady.. (watde?) hmm lets start bout last saturday, i went out for shoping at mid valley.. happily buying new clothes and shoe.. im lovin my new red blood nikey... got tengkorak kelip2 sum more... hahahaha then on sunday i went to a kenduri.. there i met lahh my cousin which i DONT really envy.. the part that i hate the most is he was also wearing nike.. ahh why lahh i shouldve bought sumthing else.. not the same.. huh still mad when think bout it now..

then on tuesday i went out wif beloved cousin yg naek from johor... nina.. (wat ur name ahh?? forgot pulak) ok.. then we watched hannah montanah the movie yeay! i still remeber the night b4 tuesday the part which i asked my bro to join us wathing movie on the next day.. it was kinda like this " weyy abg pali, kao nk join ark tgk wyg sok.. ak nk gerakmid ngan nina" then he reply "cter pe?".. sigh"hannah montanah".. then he anwered "kao ni bodoh ke ape ajk ak tgk cter HANNAH MONTANA" hahahahhahaha lol.. back to the story, then when we arrive at kdai bli pop corn uh.. i asked her.." weyh kao nk ape?? popcorn?? air??" then she replied "air je lahh" me.." air pe?" she replied "ai jarang".. i was like.."WAT?? HAHAHAHA mnede air jarang weyh air mineral ade lahh haha" she said " tu lahh mksd ak haha" soo silly.. the movie was ok.. not bad.. haha.. then we loitering around mid.. apelg nk buat kan.. sampai laa kat stu kdai ni.. ouh ouh bukan ekceli bnde ni blaku sblom msk wyg.. huhuw.. jln pyer jln msk kdai yg agk best ni.. byk gler sign board "do not touch" tp ktorg dgl.. err most of the tyme dier lahh yg dgl.. haha then sampai laa kat part pen pe yg ade elctric shock uh.. i was like impress gler cos ade tmpt cocok kat usb.. hahaha br je put my pretty precious finger kat stu.. ade plak frame dpn ktorg jtuh bderai.. wtf?! adehh ak da bpeluh da pk.. rm70? rm80? err.. ktorg pown like bodo gler bule plak bdiri je cam org bsalah kat stu.. yg apek duer ekor tu x plak ckp bhse mlyu.. ktorg pown jln bjet macho pastu cbut ahh hahahahhahahaha budu..

on wednesday my life was poured by the rain of blessing given by the most Merciful.. my dad called mara to asked about the rsult appeal yg ktorg wat dlu.. it was the greenest light ive ever seen.. but ive shocked myself by having a very undefined feeling.. i was happy.. i mean still.. but throughout the month ive prepared my self mentally/physically to go to uniten and didnt put even 20% hope to go to us.. when the result came out.. my dad asked "so how do you feel?" i said "i dun know.. happy kuwt.. er ntah lahh tataw lahh" i didnt even shout in a joyfull way.. i was just "err.. haaa.. ermm" haha budu kn??.. the first person i called dfinately nbel assila lahh kn.. then i tried to call frhana didnt get through.. then call lahh ainur, then intan, then that night farhana again.. after long chat my crdt nearly wiped out.. heh and on the same day ira my other cousin came.. night over for two days..

the nextday we went to ts.. for shopping nyopping day.. we watch blood the last vampire.. mslhnye ade plak mamat dpn seat ktorg ni byk komen ngancter tuh adeje x puas ati.. ktorg glak je lah en.. last skali dier kate "tade mse dpn ahh cter ni" hahhahahaha budu kao bjet kao spe.. hahaha sengal.. then we went to cosmo world... giler weyh.. sume ni sbb tmkn pujuk rayu ksen ak uh.. "fara plis ahh.. ni laa first and the last tyme ak dtg ts" ahh kao bjet lbeyh.. sok kao trun kl lg.. cam tuutt jehh.. hahahaha maen laa pe kjdh nye tuh ann.. ouh rse nk muntah.. pastu shoping lg.. smpai mlm siap bli teddy lg hahaha soo fluffy.. ouh siriyes ak pokai.. haritu je.. hahaha blek umah x bule tdo.. kne lecture ngan prent cam bese.. hari2 ak kne ow.. mbincangkn psl mse dpn.. tp takpe.. i need that, really..

esok nye ak kuar lg.. anta ksen ak ke kl sentral then bgerak ke ts ngan alyaa.. again?? yeahh again.. hahaha tgk cter night at the museum.. huhuw.. pastu tman alyaa g bli ksut.. ouh damn kasut alyaa sgt cantekk.. dan sgt tggi... hav fun using ur new shoe babe.. hot2!! hahahahhaha budu.. then ktorg singgah kat lowyat.. pluan utk ak survey kaler laptop.. hahaha tade kje..

then esoknye which means today.. my family and i went to shopping.. again?? hahaha we went to jj wangse mju.. bli PERFUME!!! hahahahahaha best sgt wangi ouh... bli laa mcm2 sampai lpr then ktorg mkn kay johnnys.. er btul ka eja? hahhaha yum2 mlut mlecur huahua.. then blek singgah kat giant bli shampoo/bros gigi/ ect.. then singgah afia decor bli sluar.. then g amek sjil kursus komputer, then g fuji bli stationeries, then g avon bli termos.. hahhaa dan jge brg make up.. x cye?? HAHAHAHA ya sye bcakap bnar.. ehemm2.. then brambos blek umah.. dan penat.. hahahaha ok kah?? hari2sye mmg indah2 blake..

esok tade plan?? ehh ehh adelaa g lowyat bli laptop.. huahuahuahuaa ay baybehh... hahahah till tomorrow.. i guess.. ouh ye wondering wat is lagu logah?? err ekceli bhse ngri smbilan yg bmaksud err pe ek.. bcmpur baur kuwt.... huhuw rsenye lahh

nightwish...

suddenly.. tgh2 mlm bute ni ak belek2 playlist and tjumpa lgu2 from nightwish.. sbnrnye slalu jmpe cume mls nk dgr.. tp ble tdgr rse cam "wahh" hahahaha wth?? first tyme ak minat band ni is when i was in form 2.. ke form 3.. hahaha mampushlahh.. sape ajar?? abg ak jgk.. ermm tyme tu cam pelik sbb npe tade sape pena dgr nme band nih.. dan dsbb kn band ni terlalu unik bg ak, ak ttp lyn.. len dr len ka?? yup seratus persen... hahaha tringat blog intan yg cte psl lgu2 indon.. err pe nih?? hmm dlu mnat thp gabann pastu ape jd?? ntah dgr kdg2 jeh sian band ni mpunyai pminat x setia cam ak.. tp takpe, sbb ak da dgr blek.. wat der.. like they know..hahaha

ikhlass dr kecen muh

dengan ini saya ingin mberitahu kpd dunia bhw saya seorg yg penyayang dan saya sgt syg kepade kezen saye yg bname nur zahirah zakaria...

dear ira,

thanx for being such a nice kesen who always share ur jokes that bubbles my day

thanx for always been there if i need sumbody to hug

help me out before i got drown by the helpless people around me

ur an angel

even in the most loneliness place

therefore right here right now im proudly saying i love you so much..

and looking forward to see you dearest kesen.. muahxxxx

to raby

saya sangat merindui kesen sye yg bname RABIATUL ADAWIYAH yg kni tggl di ipoh.... mak cek!!!!!!! mish you soo much!!! hope to see you soonn... walaopun rsenye tyme raye je kuwt.. tape lg jaoh dan lg lme x jmpe kao lg dlm syg ak kat kao.. uh i sound gay... tape tande ak syg kn kao ak sggup.. (wth?) hahahahhahahaha MMMMMUUUAAAXXXXXXX

check darah....

ak tataw laa npe laa ak ni budu sgt... definately i know that im hving mdcal check up.. no doubt. plus i also realise that probably i have to do the blood test.. instead of worrying i took it carelessly.. its like.. "mdcl check up?? oh whatever".. but couple days b4 i bumped into yana's blog and she wrote lahh about blood test thingy.. after reading it i was like "laa pe yg takut nye?"

dsebabkn rse curious yg mlampau.. i ask my father "ermm abah, blood test sket x?" my father "sket lahh bg abah.. satu tabung dier amek.. abah kn kne amek kat ijn.. ade sorg doktor cne tuh dier maen pkai cocok je.. umanggaaiiii osah sakek eii.." HHHHHHAAAAAAAAA?????!!!!!!!
SETABUNG?????????????? WTH?? msti korg tkjut npe ak brtaw.. sbb ak x penah amek drh atau derma atau seangkatan dgnnye.. yg ak imagine is dier just poke kat tgn amek setitik due then blah... ble bpk ak kate stabung... sumpa gugur jntng ak dow...



pastu ktorg like da dcide lahh nk wat mdcl check up kat ner.. hahaha soo near my house one lahh.. gombak medical centre.. sbla awal mju.. soo sile2 laahh bkunjung utk mberi sokongan kpd ak nnt yea..

disebabkn brite ygmngejut kn ak tuh ak dgn sgere nye check borg uniten wether dier nk tak blood test.. malang nye ak x phm bhs medic dan mbenarkn bpk ak yg bce "eerrmmphh ade ni blood test.." smbil tunjukkn kat ak amendentah pkataan tuh suda lupe.. dsebabkn tuan gmc tuh mber bpk ak pye so dier pown g laah jmpe uncle mus tuh smlm... tye bpe rege.. ble blek dgn pnuh harapan nye ak tye kat bpk ak "erkk.. err.. hehehe abahh (dgn penuh manje) uncle mus ckp ape psl blood test??" bpk ak"ouh kne due tabung"

ouh tuhan... tolonglahh... here dgn rsminye ak ckp ak takut drh... err bukan yg tu ekk.. drh yg byk dan mbuak2 smpai ke lntai.. huahuahua..

dsebabkn kjutan yg x djangke ak x bule tdo mlm td smpai kul3 lbh mbygkan apaka ak akn collapse?? atau muntah kat doctor tuh.. ak de gak plan nk cocok bius kat doct tuh cam dlm cter mr bean tu en.. huhhh ...

td ak sbuk mnyuruh bpk ak ak rsuah mber dier spye ak x perlu blood test tuh.. tulih je ak sihat walafiat tade mslh.. tade hiv/aids sume tade.. jgn rsao.. aksuda mlemrasekn lgn ak mjdi sengal dan lembik.. jari jmari cam nk putus je mnaip.. da lme2 bpk ak glakkn aku last2 dier kate "mane ade lahh"

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH??????????????????????

bygkn btape ak nk cepuk2 je bpk ak tuh.. aku ckp kat dier "haihh nasib baeklaa abah ni abah klu abah ni fatin da lme da fara tenyeh2 liku2 taw"

moral of the story is bpk ak mmg ske pdon ak... dr dlu smpai skang cme ak je x sdr... hmmphh maybe sbb tu ak ske pdon org gak kuwt... hahaha

p/s: siap lahh abh... tunngu fara counter attact nnt...

great weekend holiday

trip to bkt tggi was a blast.. btolak on friday evening.. sptutnye check in kul 3pm, tp g awal2 watpe en.. tade bnde nk kjar pown.. so after friday prayer ktorg g lahh giant mbeli belah brg2 kperluan utk ke sne like food.. and drink.. and food again.. not forgeting kuaci as my mom and i da sangao mkn kuaci. ktagih ow. tataw ahh pe yg sdp nye en kuaci tuh tp ble mkn je kuaci tui tringat plak kat afiq.b yg ak tgkslalu mkn kuaci tyme maen softball kay hc.. ehehe pastu kutuk sbb ledah sane ludah sini kulit kuaci tuh.. putuih2.. hahaha ?? ni pahal cter pasal kuaci ni... haihh.. siap bli nasi ayam bungkus lg.. kunun laa utk dnner sbb kat sne en mhl nk mam.. " mak mntak ayam lebih, sos lbih sup lbih aw", " bule ke??", " bule laa takan laa x bule plak"... skali org tu tye.. nsi tanak lebih?? kuang3...

pastu grak laa.. sengih2 nk g holiday laa kunun nye... sume da ade da.. fon check.. mp4 check.. cleo jun check.. kasut belang2 check... orite ahh on.... sampai sne first thing yg ak wat makan kuaci hahaha ak ngan mk ak mkn satu paket abes oow... pastu sbb penat gigi plus tade cter yg mnrik akibat tv tu yg hye ade tv2 tv3 n tv7... so ape lg mbute laa... holiday en nk wat ape lg (bajet ahh kat umah ak x tdo en)

hari kedua~ pagi2 lps breakfast ktorg balek umah. bodo en..hahahaha blek umah bsh bju bg kucing mkn tggu bpk ak g siye kje dlu... pastu mkn kat kdai sbla bhp tuh.. hahaha x mcm holiday un??adeke blek umah.. lol.. sempat ag laa on9.. so sampai sne blek da ptg.. nk buat ape lg tdo laa.. as ussual.. mlm tu adek ak tye psl lapisan bumi.. amek kao " erkk mule2 kerak bumi pastu mantel pastu pe ek.. tgk bku kao.." petepek.. english laa bjet ahh dlu skola renda ak blaja dlmbm laa lol.. haihh at least ak ingt laa 50% en.. utk pngetahuan korg pastu outer core and inner core.. huhuw.. igt ka?? ak tye laa " ey tin, kao da bes ke blaja subjek dajah lime??" adek ak jwb " dah laa" ak tye lg " x mksd ak syllibus??" adek ak jwb ngan muke bkerut "da ak dajah nam msti laa dah" kuang3 rpe2nye adk ak da djh nam.. haihh

dsebbkan mlm tu ade cter nur kasih ak pown tringat kaa cter embun mutiara tp x tgk plak epsode last dier.. (maybe tyme tu ak tgk industan kuwt) pastu tye laa bpk ak dgn sesuci jiwan nye "abah,pejd ngan embun mutiara??" bpk ak jwb " eerrmhh embun kan da mati.. kne lggr bas" aku pown "HAH?!?!" tbyang2 laa cmner dier kne lggr abes bkecai laa otak en.. siap pk lg maybe tu laa blsn jd model.. skali bpak ak gelak kuat gler... barai abes laa.. br laa ak sedaryg "ive been PUNKD" pas mkn ktorg g maen boling.. mura ow.. rm6 jehh mura en?? en??

hari ketiga.. pg2 ktorg g horse trail... adek ak dr jmaat bsg nk naek kude.. haa naeklaa kao.. ngan slipar nye die pown naek laa.. smntara tggu adek ak tu tgk laa kude2 kat stu yg comey2 blake siap ade nme ag dow.. bonita, patch, chester ntah ape lg laa en.. satag ak tdgr byi yg familiar ak pown pusing laa blakang.. rpe2nye ade kude ngah kenching.. npe ak kte familiar bkn sbb ak knching byi sme cam tu tp sbb byi dier same ngan byi air yg mcurah2 kat msjd dpn umah ak ni akbat paip bocor.. cam tu laa byknye dier knching.. ak impress gler laa sbb x penah tgk kde knching en so excited nye bglaa taw kat mk aku "haishh org kching pown nk tgk ka?" " laa ma, da nmpk nk wat cane"

pastu ktorg g rabbit park maen2laa rbbit katsne yg comey2blake.. yg wat ak impress is ade wabbt baby centre dmane depe ltk wbbt2 dr yg br lhir, one month old until 5 month old.. WAH!! pastu g laa pe colma tgk org wat show..then g laa jpanese tea garden n botanical garden yg da tutup..ktorg mkn lunch kat la bloson dmana seorg bgla telah sangkut kat adek ak.. mlgnye ape dier ckp ktorg x phm... mklum laa dier mgunakan bhs banglay.. haha pastu sal dier dtg je adk ak sure gelak.. adke adek aknk amek kopi pastu org tu tye laa nk gule ngan sudu x adek ak g lari.. pastu adek ak ckp laa " mne laa taw dier nk bg sudu x paham ape dier ckp " hahahaha boddo lahh.. pastu diorgmaen2 mte.. bodoh pyer adek hello kao brblaja lpsn bumi da kecoh.. byk laa pmbharuan ak tgk dr first tyme ak g dlu.. since this is the fourth one.. haha blek uh maen squash.. best ow.. tp sumpa penat.. sampai x lrt nk maen.. ak da bjet ahh kat uniten t nk msk club squash (ececehhh). tymeblek ke bilik uh nmpk laa pokok bunge cne.. cam bunge rose uh.. mak ak pown bpantun lahh.. "buai laju2 sampai ujung sane, ape dlm bju skuntumbunge cine" ak taw ape korg pk.. sbb ak pown pk mnde yg sme.. " maa, bukan buai lju2 sampai pokok sena ke??" kuang3 lepas mlepaskan gelak yg besar mk ak pown kate "do not pluck" petepek dier petik bunge tuh.. haihh pe nk jd laa.. lepas sume dpt bge msg2 pastu ktorg pown blah laa.. bjetahh ltk bnge kat rmbut en. mau x mmpus bnge tuh rmbut bsh sbb peluh eeeeeeeeuuwwwwww (ke bunge tu mmg da mmpus ble dpetik??)

mlm tuh pas makan maen laa boling... sbb sume amatur mrkh xsberape.. game last bpk ak maen... hahahaha sumpa klaka dow bjet ahh firsttyme maen nk gak stai shalin zulkifli en.. blom turn dier da amek bola da.. pastu bjet ahh nk throw camne.. siap warm up dlu camnk bsukan.. lari2 anak laa baling liang liuk bdn abehh.. skali msk longkang... adoy aii gelak x igt dunia kuwt.. pastu buleplak strike dgn stai weirdo dier tuh.. ade skali tu nk jth kdepan laa.. nk jth ke lane org laa... hahhahaa haduss klaka laa... skali dier mng mngalah kn ak by one point 68/67/62 adeak last... saba k.. haha so dier pown blgak laa cam bse en.. ktrgpown gelaklahh kat dier cam bse.. happy family.. siap kate" alaa ni first tyme maen tgk laa sok da 3 4 kalimaen bule wakil msia" hahah byk lahh.. smpai bilik tvx bule tgk sbb " this service currently not available" hujan x ribut x x bule tgk.. gilo...

arini blek laa umah.. saket2 bdn dsebabkn squash tuh.. haih..npe ak ratekn greatweekendholiday?? sbb ni lahh first tyme ak holiday x bwk buku skola.. x rsao exam.. x risao result.. x resao ape2 yg ak kne watpas blek holiday.. tade rse bsalah.. ak ley wat sesuke hati ak.. buang mse ak.. mkn2.. jln2.. tdo2.. x seperti sume holiday yg ak pegi b4 this.. hihi.. best ofluck to me in uniten soon..

sangap

maen bende2 bodoh kat fcbok and mys... tu laa bahane nye klu x start blaja lg.. ak bjet laa nk bgn awal (pdhl kul 1) nk cr mnde2 yg mrnsang mnda sbg psediaan utk blaja x lme lg en.. tp ape yg ak jmpe?? ape yg ak sangkut?? ape yg ak wat?? glmer age *credit to azrie halili* ~~ sorority life*crdt to yda* ~~fshion war *cdrt utk dri sndiri*. mafia wars?? hahaha ngabehkan bogheh yo.. tade crdt nk reply.. hahahaha

specially dedicated to shahmi...

weyy ak br bce kao nye blog psl "lucky roulette"

ak taw kao x sedih kao cool (bajet) but from wat ive read i think its not wrong if i want to give u my opinion.. perhaps the way im thinkin is different from others in the prospect of university life as u can see im choosing uniten rather than uia.. which is swasta..

i admit swasta IS expansive.. no doubt man, cant imagine how my parents sacrifice like evrything they got, wat they've saved before this.. scatered in front of my eyes just to pay my fees etc. not commenting so much on that but thats wat make me wanna stdy hard.. start to tell to myself that i have to study hard no matter wat.. dun let them down.. summore im taking mechanical engineering.. siriyesly not easy..

but all the expesive thingy is just for the first yer.. try my best to achive the highest point that i could so that i secure my place for scholar.. it goes the same for u dude, like unikl definately anak mara en.. perhaps first sem you hav to pay (ta bule lari lahh) but how about the 6-7 sems after that?? this means you REALLY have to work hard in ur first sem so that mara will give you loan. mara summore easier.. cgpa above 3.5 automatik jd scholar.. if didnt make u still dun hav to pay 100 percent.. bule kaotim (not like the one u did for jpj) =p amek borang pngurangn byran.. u see everything can be settled if u study hard enough.. by this, u will definately x buang mse lepak2 (like other people~~~ no heart feeling) becos you hav such a BIG responsibilities towards yourself, family, and frens(like me) hahahha..

so try to think in my way (if you go to private lahh) wouldnt you be better person if you know ur responsibilities and took care of them well? perhaps if u go for ipta.. byr sket MEMANG! tp manetaw kao slek ke byk maen.. again no heart feeling but this is the fact.. open sket k.. ce tgk org cne n india yg kne byr mhl2 then tgk malay yg mdpt byk bntuan dr krajaan (in university) i dun want to explain in detail but REMEMBER wat i said "observed" them ta kesa laa mane2 kao pegi pown.. then kao pk la sdiri wat im trying to say.. but not saying all malay lahh as im part of them and proud to be one.. but think lahh. cant say lot more sensitive case here.. hahaha

watever it is.. ill pray for ur success.. susa senang sme k.. hopefully u get wat u want... watever it is its the best for u.. like i didnt get mara, mmg sdh tp i believe if i get lahh that one perhaps im not thinking this kindda way know.. maybe ak cam sonok gler.. lupe dunia.. lupe kwn.. lpe nk study bjet da pndai.. spent the money they give unwisely.. tataw lahh kn.. tp now i can see what so called "hikmah" for not getting it.. and looking forward to see more "hikmahs" in future.. hopefully you will find ur hikmah soon..

sume mahu pergi...

i know and i just want to say gud luck...

first and foremost nbil, wlaopun kao sbnrnye da lme da brambus tp klu x ltk nme kao cam sedih plak.. hahhahaa i know its hard, to face evrything alone without ur best buddies (yg murtad utp tuh) hahaha, without ur roomate, without me(ececehh), but its a part of growing up and try as much as we can to be indipendent.. i will always miss you and all the tyme weve ever spent every moment we had together.. be stong hun even ramai yg want to get back wif u, n mmg da ramai wif u currently (jgn kantooi sudey)... kurang kan tdo (pdhl ak pown tdo lg byk dr kao kuwt), appriciate wat u already hv right now all the peluangs to success.. to intan, hahaha kao bsmgt tol ngan uitm.. gud luck hun, hopefully u achieve ur dream to be a doctor.. bukak klink sdiri "klinik Intan skeluarga" hahaha treatment utk otk ak free k =p

to syah, alyaa, afiq and sue.... luv ya always.. its not eassy i know.. but we all hv to work hard and struggle to achieve wat weve dreamt for.. syah, gud luck wif ur college hopefully u will msk miat one fine day and work in airport like you always wished for.. alyaa, afiq, gud luck in kedah.. mkn laksa like my mom said.. to sue.. n9 nice place nnt msm buah ak lwt kao ek bwk buah rambutn sguni... alahh sonaling tu takat borang umah den yo ha.. miss all the memories we had.. hihi..

to rabiatul adawiyah.. my beloved kesen, who is goin to kptm today.. tape x kesa kao dok umah lgpown.. huhuw gud luck wif ur multimedia, ur such a sweet kesen especially when you make ckodok in the mddle on the night... hahaha trust me it wont be easy but try ur best k.. xoxoxo

to alya. now in penang take care of urself hun, no more cat fighting k.. hahaha i can c ur enthusiasm towards getting 4 flat.. gud luck hun.. lily, kuantan iis such a nice place.. ak dpt taw dr shaza yg kao nye dkt ngan tmpt nk shopping en... ak tataw laa ape k jd sure kao kasi kaye nye tmpt tuh doe.. rose, ila, izat uitm shah alam soo near only bule kte lpk lg kan.. kan.. smoge korg blaja leklok.. syaza awek um, hahaha dkt juga mehh still bule jmpe.. kate nk sneak out en.. nat kat uia amek nursing.. gud luck hun, ur deserve it lahh kao en like very caring, loving, know how to massage people nicely.. huahuahua..

next farhana aini... i still dunno ur dcision yet hahaha but gud luck wif everything.. thanx for being such a nice buddy to me.. will not forget you hun.. to qella ali kutty.. hahahaha tade kne mngene.. tape nk tulis gak.. luv you...

to me.. uniten is waiting, my life status there will be like nabil lahh wif nobody.. starting a VERY new life.. new frens new adventure... hopefully we wil meet each other sooner or later.. knowing each of us becoming great people with great money hahaha..

balek2 bnde nih...

ak pown ta bule nk ckp ape lg weyhh... blek2 psl ni gakk..
first of all my dad called me this noon and said " results of mara still the same.. but ive apealed already" so i was like.."its ok, dun worry it doesnt feel as hurt as the first tyme i heard bout it" so thats it.... dunno wat to think anymore just berserah je..

then i asked him again after he came home.. then he said even azlans ic oso kne like mine one.. i was like " what?? how come??" then becoz ta bule thn pye psl i asked again azlan nye ic num.. and try ade je nme dier kuar.. there must be sum thing wrong laa mse he check my name kat mara.. perhaps org tu check kat spc not piln.. ade kmungkinan rite..

so to think deeper.. it means my status for mara still undefined.. like shit ahh rite
mampus laa ak da x kesa da weyh... nk ckp ape pown da tataw... pthhati already.. kechiwa je dgr nme mara... hehh ngative gler ak ni.. sory lahh tade mksd pape siyess..

ak yg msh tataw ape result ak ni akn concentrate kat uniten... what else can i do rite.. klu ak bjye interview tu smpai laa surat... klu x smpai2 i understand wat it means.. uniten is such a gud place.. i know i wont regret going there... stop asking me y uniten not uia... its my life, my choice laa... dont think much about money when ur talking bout study beb.. wth.. klu syg sgt duit mk bpk.. tanak bzirkn duit diorg.. g kje.. jgn stadi. g sewa umah sdiri.. kete sdiri.. sume sdiri.. jual laptop korg hp korg (yg sbnrnye dr duit diorg kan??) so F* laa ak nk study kt ner en.. dont byk byi laa.. mhl ke mura ke.. dekat ke jaoh ke.. klu korg nk ngat ak uia tu amek laa ak da tgglkn tmpt ak utk kao...

pe ni ak mara2 x psl2 hehh.. sorylaa emosi x stabil.. otak begegar sket..

false hope

dunno wat to say already...
its still a no

waiting moment

its killing me man... you know how it felt when you just cant get your head out of it?? isk3.... need to calm down but can anyone tell me how to do it? i even cant slept for 2 days already.. 430 in the morning my mind still on the screen of my comp.. not trying to say i hav photographic memory (which i obviously not)... urghh then imaginelaa i wake up at wat tyme en.. LOL... then i will still sit on my comp trying to kill my tyme.. but so far it seems a pretty ong dayfor me.. oh God fly pliz laa, another one whole day to go (but today pown x finish lg hehh) stay there k... dont jerut2 ur leher ke.. hahahhaah ghilak tol....

ishh geram tol

taw x kucing kat luar umh ak nak branak.. fine laa ak bole thn lg laa kao nk memekak en.. tp x pyh laa nk kuis2 pntu umah ak plak.. nk branak, wat kat luar laa syp2.. ni tekuis2 cam nk pecah msk umak ak je.. ishh.. kang ak picit prot tu br taw.. hahahhahaha evil gler kuwt.. ahh lntk laa.. org da bg kotak ngan kain kao nk msk gak umah ak pastu kao nk branak kat mne?? bilik ak?? hahhahaha kan da kantoi bilik ak like the best place for her to deliver bcoz bsepah gler.. bangang laa hahahaha. tp bok je ngendeng kat mk ak tyme dier nk angkat bj.. skali tpijak menjerit kaw.. hahhaa pastu mk ak ckp.." sebaek x tpijak prot, x psl2 tberanak tros" kui3 boddo laa... da laa hopefuly kuar laa ank kao esok.. tgk sket kaler ape... klu bole nk laa cam garfield (cehh pdhl kutuk kucing tu pstu demand)

new hope coming up..

MAAF, ANDA TIDAK BERJAYA

thats all... thats all they wrote... kindda wierd when i discussed it wif my mother.. she said "yeah laa.. so pelik it suposed to have your name and your ic number" thats why i felt something wrong..

then i check for malin kundang's results.. HAHHAHA im sooo happy he got it.. yeah another gombuck guy r goin overc... and of course laa the result shows his name and his details en.. then i check out my brother result the one that he didnt get.. my mum print it ysterday... eventhough he did get it but still theres his name stated and his ic and this" anda tidak bejaya" thing..

then my mum said " ysterday when i check on fadli's result at first i type the ic wrongly.. i put dash.. then it came out like he one you see on your result.. then i retype and didnt put the dash and then the real result came out with his name and ic number"

that really cunfusing.. then i started recheck my fren who didnt get it.. he said " yeah got my name and ic one" then to satisfy myself i asked for his ic num.. then again what i saw is his name and his ic number and "anda tidak berjaya" thing..

this is confusing which one is actually a true one... my mum said if you get the one you get it means that the ic num is not in the data base perhaps.. maybe they key in my ic number wrongly so when i check its not there.. do you get it?? i dunno if you dont understand what im saying.. uts preety complicated.. but it means im NOT SURE of my result.. of course laa i will double check wif mara om monday.. but while waiting i will try my best to hack my own ic.. its sounds ike im loosing my mind.. but it not need me to pay anything rite.. ouh mara is killing me.. hopefully they tersalah key in my ic and there still hope for me to get it... now im scared man.. really scared.. and if i get it.. i honestly will pledge to study as hard as i could to fulfill my dream... the oportunity.. becoz i already know how it feels to loose it... oh God help me...

didnt get it

hahaha sound bullshit pas br je sdh becoz of my brother skang ni ak lak yg x dpt...
dunno wat else to say.. sedih perhaps yeahh... hmm people said "alaa x pe laa kao kn ade byk offer choose je laa yg len tu" but they dont understand that yg byk2 tu bkn laa my first choice.. honestly my first choice WAS finance.. and the only place i applied is under mara.. dont askk why yg len i x apply mara.. sbnrnye becos dlu i tade ambition rite.. i aways wanted to be a marine biologist... tp malang x berbau ats sbb2 tertentu i decided not to continue with it.. so its all kindda terletak pd my parents decision ( yg sbnrnye my dcision)..

they choose what they think the best and it was "mechanical engineering".... so cam byk gler ahh eng pyer offer like UIA, NOTTIGHAM, UNITEN, even sains fzikal for kolej mara kulim (which i tanak pegi sbb kat kedah!! hahahhaha i said to my mum " maa, kedah kuwt nk makan ape kat stu??" then she balas" mkn laa laksa sedap!! bule kuruskn badan" thats soo doesnt make sense ryte if i go there) hahahah bodo je..

so yeah i KOMPEM tanak amek line medic.. but tataw laa about eng.. so ble da taw dpt interview for mara pe lagi the whole family work it out cr information.. then br laa realize that finance is wat im good in.. dier need maths and we need to meet people alaa yg cam dlm tb tuh.. jd consultant for a company.. pastu da bjet ahh nk jd ceo en.. hikhik.. siap pegi ijok mntk tips dr ainur.. hahaha bpk dier smgt cam dier doe.. genetik... GO AINUR!!! ONCI 2 PYER MENTERI BESAR!!.. soo silly laa dlu2... then pegi tuuh siap pkai bju kutung yg ak jhit sdiri kuwt.. hahahah bwk tuah laa konon.. hampeh... yg pegi sme2 interview tu sume skola superb2 semasyur, tkc, ssp, and me.. what derr... skali malang x berbau... x dpt..

tanhx to farhana aini.. for your information.. klu x ak tataw da kuar smlm.. tyme tu sdih weyy x tpu hahahhaha.. tp thank God ahh on the same tyme ak ngah ym ngan nbel... x penh2 dlm sumur hidup (ceyy) ym ngan nbel.. tu laa ym2 skali dpt brita buruk... hahahaha thanx to nbel for giving me ur strength.. dier ckp " dlu ak x penah imagine amek ict.. but no turning back" so ak pown stick laa to eng line no turning back..

haih.. klu ak kte x nges tpu laa... tp ak x laa mraung en.. cme bergenang ahh pastu meleleh skit gagagagaggaga bodoh laa.. tape ahh tde rzeki nk wat cne... hopefully ak bule jugak jd kaye ble jd engineer t... i want money!!.. hahahhahaha

ape yg mbuatkn ak tekilan is.. ade some of my frens dpt plus gud country oso.. dont want to state laa.. but still thinking of rejecting the offer becos that is not their first hoice... sickening en.. ya laa.. not everybody get wat you got.. ade yg dsperately need it.. you da dpt be thankfull laa.. ni tanak.. wats the point you go for the interview.. unless you ade byk offer utk overc.. bank ngra/ petronas/ sime darby bla3... then you bole laa nk choose either one.. tp ble da sketul tu je you dpt.. then nk kte " tataw ahh weyy.. maybe ak tolak kuwt.. ak nk jd ni.. tp yg ni offer dier ni.. x sme.." wtf ahh... hahaha kan da marah da ni.. no heart feeling ahh.. its my blog tak suke jgn bce.. boo... ( da bengong da) then ad sorg ni ckp kat aku " sme cam kao en dpt byk offer tp kao tolak kn.. smelaa cam diorg... bukan tu yg diorg nk.." the problem is hun, itu offer for place.. ni offer people want to give you MONEY 400k-600k?? i dunno.. kan diffrent tuh.. haihh ak ni byk jeoffer duit mne nk cr bai...

not forgeting non bumis yg dpt offer g luar ngra... dlm ngara pown susah nk dpt thu.. dont laa weyy reject for your own sake.. unless like farhana aini's case.. got india so better dont go.. UM is much2 more better.. hmmm x gne laa ckp byk en klu da x dpt tuh.. i know... life goes on be persistent.. just take the mech eng.. end of story..

why??

ape lg yg x cukup?? almost everything he did.. almost perfect man ape lg x cukup??

my mum said could be luck.. he doesnt have the luck on his side thats why he didnt get it.. rumah arini kindda suram.. eventhough lately i barely spoke to him but still i can feel the tense babe.. ouh thought you guys wouldnt understand becos ur nat the one who felt it rite.. dont bother.. but were the one left to feel all of this miserable moment.. after that long crap waiting moment.. which at the end stands for nothing.. aa ahh.. nathaa.. zero..



ermm cgpa 3.75.. cool... ielts ( which costs my mum rm 3500) pown da wat 6.5.. ok laa better than 5.0.. maybe the interview.. but i thought it went well.. man why laa the results yg ptt nye tahu awal bulan delay smpai arini..



perhaps " whatever happen ade hikmahnye" ya rite.. well see..