Im okay now :)

Hello,

I spent some quality time talking to a dear friend on the phone today
She told me that she heard the story
I guess words spread pretty fast ...I mean among girls (who could deny that? haha)
That's alright
 As long as they are good words, why not

It reminds me how I don't really share what happen to me now
I kind of just left the story hanging and left few sorrow posts for the past 2 months
I did try my best to suppress my thoughts a lot and try not to write much coz it was a pain
But here I am
Smiling
and ready to open up

Specially written for those who cares
(Take a deep breath)

Im okay now

I definitely feel much better
Physically and emotionally
I took care of myself and clean up the mess I made
Eat more healthily and is now living in a more positive atmosphere

I was once a bird with a broken wing
Couldn't fly where she wants to
Couldn't get through the cloudy sky
Couldn't go to any place that she could call home
Has already fixed herself :)

Im just now simply brand new

It was a good learning experience for me
I gained so much from what happen, I discover so much about myself
Despite the tears and tense that I felt I know that its okay
and its always going to be okay

Its okay to be imperfect,
Its okay to be a crier,
Its okay to not be okay,
Sometimes a girl just need those times so she could move forward

Its okay to be scared, as long as I learn to be brave
Its okay to be sad, as long as I am willing to smile again
Its okay that things don't work out well, as long as I have faith
Its okay to face a horrible end, because it may be the best way for an amazing start

I read some of the posts that I wrote years ago
I was SUCH a happy kidI even laugh hard on the stuff that I said
Seriously that made me realize how much I have changed
How much I've grown and no longer a weird kiddo
Big chunk of myself transformed without me realizing it

I honestly missed writing like a crazy lady
Telling weird stories that are totally irrelevant to the real world
I remembered how I laughed so hard trying to write things out
Stupid ideas just flow like a river of flying jokes (in my head of course)
I guess I just missed being me

Not that I regret for the changes that I've gone through
I love being who I am now
All the things that I've explored, all the people that I've met, all the stuff that I have done,
Taught me how big the world is
It is not just about me and my life
Its about how my existence will make the world a better place

But then again,
Friends,
Things wont always work out the way we want it to be
Life will always be life; sometimes it gives you roses sometimes it gives you lemon
No matter what, you always have the option to choose you attitude, mood and behavior towards it

From what I've learned:
Its okay to have lovers or haters, that prove your humanness
Its okay to let things go, that proves you are stronger than before
Its okay to try something that is beyond your thoughts and limitations
Because you will then realize how much courage can you really have
Its okay to wonder, to dream and to share your feelings
Those are all good things that will benefit you in the long run

I love to be who I was before, who I am now and would love to be whom will I become tomorrow
I love to be the kind of woman who is not afraid to learn more about herself and value her own feelings and rationales
I love to share my thoughts and opinions, express my affections and cares towards others
I love seeing women around the world being so empowered and know when to stand up for themselves
I  love to be inspired and would love to become an inspiration

Let us all be the kind of woman our daughter will look up to <3 p="">